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Yayyyy i can message people back now, I got to a few last ni..
🕑 Added 2022-04-25 17:14:42 +0000 UTC Yayyyy i can message people back now, I got to a few last night before of went down for maintence for creators, couldn’t access my inbox lol find a good morning pic in your inbox soon if you’re on auto renew 🥰 oh and idk how I got back up to 5% from 2.8 a couple months ago when I’ve been hella bustin ass is so frustrating lol I hate algorithms 😅😭😭 made this goal and if we can get to 4% by the end of the month I’ll be sending everyone something special in their inbox 🤍❤️🩹🤍 I don’t think any goal was completed this month so that would be rly cool 🥲🥲🥲 Last night I got off cam and had a mental breakdown lol someone in ig said “I miss your old place” and it rly just fucked my mood and total self esteem like yeah me too bro but this is my life now and it doesn’t feel good to know other people are telling me they miss my old life basically 😔 lol and had a bad breakdown on my dad, so we’re going to find therapists (he hasn’t gone to therapy since my mom died so he has ALOT of trauma he doesn’t even know) and has to work on himself first before we can work on each other together But progress is being made with telling each other our boundaries and respect, I found a photo the only pic of me in my dads house and it’s when I was fuxking 14 I set it on his desk as a sign of like okay this drives in the NAIL in that you still look at me like your little girl, you don’t want photos of me NOW how I look up bc ashamed and he tried to deny that but when I told him bout the time he wanted to promote my art on his fb and I had to walk through with him how to block certain people from seeing the post, because he was embarrassed this is his daughter. Proud of my art but not me as a person and after the huge talk and lots of crying and saying things that prob really hurt him, he genuinely apologized for the first time ever for choosing his wife over his daughter for ten years and it was a huge weight lifted that’s all I wanted was admittance of that, and he just couldn’t bc denial and pride. I’m so glad he’s willing to go to therapy tho, he’s my only family my ONLY I don’t talk to anyone any part of my family bc they’re all fuckkng crazy and my parents kept me away from them for a reason and I’m thankful of that. So it’s just up from here, I have alot of trauma to get through and patience because he’s unaware of his actions and I can’t call out every single time bc that would feel like a major attack so we def need a mediator to help with a rational conversation where we don’t interrupt each other lllolol that’s such a problem 😂 I forever appreciate you guys letting me have a space to be open and comfortable abojt it, idk if there’s anyone in here for malicious reasons but if so thanks for your sub 😂🤣😂🤣 everyone I’ve talked to tho has been absolutely wonderful humans, I have finally gotten to the point of enjoying posting and updating because it’s not my diary private public lolol but from now on I think things will be going up from here I just have to get my plants inside ASAP lol I need this wire rack, if anyone snags it for me I’ll send you a Timelapse of me setting up all my plants topless 😂🥰🥰🥰 it’s the first rack 🤍 it’s about tk get too hot to where my plants are going to melt pretty much lol I’m terrified so I need this to be able to have them inside and the spacing and racks are absolutely perfect 😍 Time to reply to everyone and then do plant careeee! Here’s some pix, sone are a year old but I liked them 🥲 https://a.co/aHlvPnB
