HEY FAM!!Not sexy so only read if you're into INSIDER PEP IN..
🕑 Added 2021-10-23 18:17:29 +0000 UTC
HEY FAM!!Not sexy so only read if you're into INSIDER PEP INFO:
As many of you know I've been going through a sorta semi kinda not really but yes break up with @o0rino0o over the last 8 months. As a result I moved in with my sister since the end of feb and as such haven't been as able to do customs or live private shows (which is a lot of my earnings...) this WILL be changing as of this week as we get keys Monday to the new bigger place and i AM SO EXCTED i will have the fibre internet and so much space to create in....
So! this week as I told you all I came to see @o0rino0o and pick up some Halloween stuff and kind of touch base (as we are both openly in love with each other)
I guess i expected...something else. I was hoping we'd be able to kind of start anew, slowly come to trust each other and such over a longer period...but as it turns out he's kind of somewhere else mentally..
Most notably he's decided he wants to explore more of an ...open relationship.
Part of me is VERY cool with this...we were actually in that process about a year before things got a bit too much...but it's not as though he wants to wait and peruse this with me. He plans to pursue this independently, and, as it turns out, has been already.
I'm not mad, but i feel..naïve? Definitely naïve. As I haven't really pursued much of anything with anyone in the last 8 months since I left our our home.
I don't blame him for it, but it definitely threw me for a curve ball when he revealed this concept and the fact that many of the female "friends" he has made over the last eight are much more than that to him.
I guess I'm a bit heartbroken, despite knowing he loves me and wants to make this work long term. I am often blind to signs with him and now that he's being clear I can see it. And again, I feel foolish af XD
And, truly, a big part of me is kind of excited to go find myself a few fuckable friendlies..but i guess the sudden change in our relationship is scary as goddamn HELL. Of course I'm terrified like every girl before me that I'll be replaced by someone better that I basically OK'ed to be there. Like poison by my own hands.
We also broke originally because of trust issues. @o0rino0o especially had some very deep rooted trust issues and kind of assumed by the end that i was producing and making pornography with a studio i had founded myself behind his back (i did none of that. it got...intense people....>>)
So I'm definitely fearful and have my worries that this won't work out (and i mean both ways, i haven't really explored anything much with anyone else at this point and i don't really believe ri will react favorably as he somehow thinks he will) BUT i love him and this way we can still be a couple so0o0o gonna give it a swing!
But really I'm telling you all this to explain and apologize for my absence this week as well as the lack of custom work (I'm so sorry I'll be doing soo much work when i get back and set up Monday) I've been dealing with some really real things and although we've had a LOOOT of great sex, that was before I was informed of the new scenario I was in and so now I'm a liiill ..i need a minute...
During that time Ri is souping my desktop THE FUCK UP so get stoked for always 4k streaming and videos again like it used to be...ahhhhhh
So I guess this was a sorta good news kinda weird bad news kinda post??? tell me your thoughts! what would you do?? Are you as excited as i am to see the new studio?!?!!
xx
Pep
