frazzledflower
fansly
🕑 Added 2022-12-24 17:19:31 +0000 UTC
hey guys! merry christmas eve! unfortunately, i come bearing bad news :( the elf themed three way video will not be available for purchase. i didn’t even shoot the scene. i got too uncomfortable. i thought i would be ready for shooting something like that but i wasnt. im sorry to anybody who was looking forward to it.
my regulars know that i really struggle with my mental health and needed a break in november. i came back in december and wanted to be bigger and better than ever. so i lined up two different cosplays and a sex tape during the month of christmas (good going fraz) and it was a very bad idea.
when i first started sex work, i didn’t really plan stuff? i would just get out of bed everyday, put on a cute outfit, and go from there. i was even streaming on twitch and hanging out with you guys! i was making pretty good money. i mean i had my own place at one point. it was a lot of fun.
now this was like peak egirl era on tiktok and i don’t consider myself a typical “egirl” but i was trying so hard to be because that’s what got attention and brought people to my page. so i started beating myself up when i realized i couldn’t hit that expectation.
i needed a better set up. i needed to cosplay more. i need to do more on tiktok. i have to start making sex tapes. i have to buy better toys. and eventually, i did all those things. but now im miserable. and i don’t wear/use anything that i bought like ever due to all this stress. i did the better makeup and got the better set up and ive been cosplaying more but because i feel like i have to and not because i want to.
don’t get me wrong, i had so much fun in my faye valentine and mavis dracula this month but by the end, i was so over it. didn’t even want to touch my phone. i couldn’t even bring myself to finish my advent calendar. december was not a good month to come back. ive been putting too much on my shoulders. im draining any sunshine in me.
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