hi! i wanted to make a quick post on here since someone deci..
🕑 Added 2022-05-10 20:27:00 +0000 UTC
hi! i wanted to make a quick post on here since someone decided to rudely vent their frustration about me not recording a dildo vid for months on my twitter instead of messaging me privately on here!
for starters, i have been keeping everyone in the loop this entire time, so i find that *incredibly* disrespectful at the very least.
here’s what has happened in the past few months:
- i got food poisoning
- i had the stomach flu
- i had a fever at night for a week
- i got an infection from counterfeit soap and my 🐱 was very swollen and irritated *(so i couldn’t make any 🐱 content)*
- i was being put on multiple different types and doses of medication for my depression, anxiety, ocd, bpd, etc - which heavily effect the body because of side effects and getting used to new medication
- i was on vacation for a month and a half *(i made content during that time, by the way)*
- i was extremely depressed after my boyfriend left for at LEAST a week
- after my boyfriend went back home, i was behind on content so i had to prioritize that first so i wasn’t straight up not posting *anything*
- many other things!
- ***and most importantly: i have had an UNTREATED, EXTREME case of ibs-c for A YEAR and saw a doctor LAST WEEK. i had to wait multiple months to see them because they had no available spots up until recently. i won’t see results for 3 weeks. i looked pregnant almost constantly and was always very uncomfortable because of how bloated i was. i didn’t think anyone wanted a video of me riding a dildo with a giant, bloated stomach.***
keep in mind i finished HALF of my customs before my boyfriend visited again *(this current trip we’re on right now, which ends may 21st)* and then i had more unfortunate circumstances happen to me before he came, so i was unable to finish my customs and record the dildo video.
saying “she tries so hard to convince people she can’t stick a dildo in her pussy for a few minutes” and “i swear she takes forever to do anything” and other rude things makes me really sad and upset, it hurts a lot. i’ve been nothing but transparent about the status of my custom orders and the ppv dildo video and posting frequent updates.
***my custom orders have always been prioritized over paid content for everyone else and will continue to be prioritized over everyone else until they are finished.*** i have given those with custom orders multiple months of my onlyfans subscription for FREE. no one that has a custom order placed with me has had any issues BECAUSE i have been so transparent and have been compensating them for being patient.
i had my onlyfans 50% off for the ENTIRE month and a half my boyfriend was here the last time and it’s back to being 50% off since he’s here again, it was 20% to 30% off before that. my onlyfans is ALWAYS on sale. i don’t know what else i can do to make things more pleasant for everyone.
i’m trying my hardest here and i’m the ONLY person doing all of this on top of it, ***most of the girls that are able to do custom orders and a million other things all at once have an entire team of employees that handle everything for them - they make the content and their employees do the rest. i don’t have that.***
stuff like this really demotivates me and makes me feel like my circumstances/personal life isn’t cared about or respected. i feel like me announcing i’m not accepting custom orders anymore was enough proof that i’m aware i’m taking a long time and i feel terrible about it - but ***all of the things that happened to me that refrained me from finishing my custom orders and making a paid dildo video was LITERALLY out of my control.***
everyone is different and we all have lives of our own. some people are able to accept custom orders and finish them extremely fast, others are able to accept custom orders but take longer, and others are unable to accept custom orders period. custom orders taking multiple months in this industry is normal, believe it or not.
i am a human being, not an object. it’s upsetting i have to post an explanation where i’m basically repeating myself because my frequent updates aren’t enough for some people.
if you don’t want to wait any longer for a ppv dildo video, find it from someone else, don’t take out your frustrations on me and especially not in public on my twitter page. i’m a human being, not a sex robot with no personal life and no needs i.e. sleep, eating, self care, etc.
thanks for reading, and sorry for the essay! i hope you all understand! :)
