Hey guys! I’ve been meaning to talk about this for a little ..
🕑 Added 2021-07-25 22:55:21 +0000 UTC
Hey guys! I’ve been meaning to talk about this for a little bit but it’s something I’ve been avoiding in fear of the stigma around it BUT I do think it’s time it’s addressed. These last 2 months I’ve been going through therapy and have been diagnosed with bpd (bipolar disorder) which can lead to intense mood swings / shifts in behavior at the drop of a hat and last from a day or two to months on end. After talking with my therapist I have discovered I tend to have “triggers” for depressive episodes, including doctor/dental appointments, talking with family, and even making content. I am bringing this up because I feel like I’ve been slacking this last month due to my medical issues (which have since been semi resolved) that have been keeping me in a very panicked and anxious place. I am taking steps to combat any severely negative episodes of depression but I have noticed that I have been in a depressive dip. I feel a lot of guilt during these times because I become much slower at producing content, responding to messages, and upholding my standard of this platform. I have a lot of anxiety that I’m not doing enough or producing content that is fun, alluring, and cool for y’all. I love my job and all the support I get from it really means the world to me and I really appreciate y’all’s patience when I kind of go MIA for a week or 2 on here. I am working hard on getting myself into a place that allows for me to work without anxiety and depressive dips afterwards but it takes time. I love y’all, and thanks for being understanding ❤️
P.s this isn’t me going MIA for longer, it’s just explaining why it’s been a semi slow month. I do have a lot of content that I’m very proud of coming out soon and I hope y’all will enjoy.
