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nightly nudes to let you know i haven't forgotten about you ..
🕑 Added 2022-10-13 01:31:21 +0000 UTC nightly nudes to let you know i haven't forgotten about you 😌 i guess i should use this space as a lil diary since i have it here for me. kinda sad post ahead, but i'm gonna try keep a positive attitude about it :) I was spending a lot of time talking to another trans girl I met on twitter. and I ended up getting a bit of a crush on her. But... i'm a really guarded person and I have a lot of fear about being replaced. When I feel like i'm being replaced, my default coping mechanism is to just isolate myself. So I did that. and predictably she ended up just moving on and finding another person, which made me really sad. My own guardedness feels like it's making dating or any sort of relationship nearly impossible for me. At the same time it feels nice that i explored something for the first time in quite a while and i also feel pretty good about the fact that I could actually see myself making mistakes and identify them. I think it should mean that next time round I can do a better job of communicating them. The next time I isolate I can communicate that it's just a fear response and maybe I can let people get a little bit closer to me :)
