**I’m gonna take a week off posting online in general to try..
🕑 Added 2022-03-01 04:08:21 +0000 UTC
**I’m gonna take a week off posting online in general to try reset myself. I can’t make content I’m proud of when I feel like this, and if I don’t take it now it’ll probably keep getting worse**
Warning: There is ugly crying in this and it’s a sad video.
I have an appointment with my doctor in less than a week so I’ll definitely talk to them about how I’m feeling.
At the start of this month I said I was gonna try spend more time taking care of myself because my mood was getting worse, and it looked good at first! But, at this point I’m not taking care of myself at all. Im just stuck in a depression pit. I’m not showering, doing laundry or cleaning my apartment. I’m missing meals, not sleeping til 4-5am, not getting out of bed for hours after waking up, not remembering to take my medication, not exercising.
But I’m not going anywhere!! I genuinely love doing this. I love how it’s helped my transition. I have so many friends that I’ve met through messaging here who are so kind to me, and I’ve made so many friends through twitter or networking n stuff. There’s no way I’m not coming back.
I do honestly feel ashamed that I didn’t handle this more professionally. But I’m also not a very professional person. I decided I’d put my whole personality into my posts and try to be authentic, and sometimes my personality is a sad and depressed girl. And that’s okay I think. I’ve been struggling with depression and self esteem issues and body issues since I was 14 so, it’s nothing new to me. Don’t worry too much and I’ll see u soon :)
Love, Aoife. 💙💙
