ohwhatawoman
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Let it be shitty, let yourself be unsatisfied all the time
🕑 Added 2022-11-29 20:57:03 +0000 UTC
Hello everyone, and hello to new patrons, I see you all, thank you for coming to read and watch my work. It's very cool and very important for me. I sincerely hope that I'll be able to share my thoughts and give you something!
I have a simple monthly subscription, you will not be charged on the first, your payment will be made exactly a month later. Well, for those who pay for the subscription on the first, I also want to say thank you for keeping up!!!
The days are very different, and the time is so fast, and I am finally realizing what I want. I'm going to finish making my tracks, I wanna release 4-6 this time, I wanna wait and give a lot at once this time. To play big I guess. I twist them every day, but most of all there is a feeling that I am rebuilding myself, teaching myself to love it. I mean, the more you live in it, the more you want to be in these tracks later. but with age, such a transition can be very difficult, even at 28.
Let it be shitty, let yourself be unsatisfied all the time
at first, it's this way because you don't know how to do anything and just go crazy with the horror of your creation, because at first everything is always bad))
then you are inspired by something and just learn, partly repeating poses and colors and jerking yourself off for the fact that you don't have a concept, that you don't invent anything and don't move on.......
If I were teaching someone now, I would first of all worry about people's feelings, about how they relate to their work and the step: that the stage is just a stage, you can still enjoy it
well, everyone has their own pace, some people take years, others months, and someone immediately jumps over everything, so the training system, it seems to me, is utopian and destructive
but an individual approach is fertile soil.
But this is also not enough, sometimes I distract myself with some fears and bad thoughts, my mood deteriorates afterwards and it is difficult to create, or I need to stand and look out the window for 15 minutes. It's like I'm my own wildcat that needs to be caught and petted.
I don't expect anything from these tracks except myself and the feeling of how I worry, how my madness in my head sticks to all this, to all these tracks!!! I'm waiting for more people who'd listen and will find something for themselves, that their thoughts will cling like birds to the branches and wires of the sound of my wires. And we'll meet here, and we don't have to know each other and look into each other's eyes. And we can either meet in our experiences and feel the same, or we may never understand each other.
Vision is diverse, you can read and visualize, and you can already start enjoying the specifically collected beauty in the picture. And the sound is something elusive, it seems to me…
I'm probably going through one of the most important transitions right now, a kind of transformation from one creative path to another. and I feel that music is like my child, idk, maybe because I'm a girl and that's why it works this way. I'm trying to say that here I'm really trying to take care of myself and what I'm doing, I'm not running and experiencing my emotions, I'm not listening to anyone, I'm not looking for idols, but if it weren't for photography, I wouldn't have so much space, time and opportunities to give myself my own sound
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