Felix Elise
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Oakland Cemetery
🕑 Added 2021-07-12 03:04:57 +0000 UTCThe weather this weekend almost ruined two shoots for me. I was soaked in the downpour at Keith's Bridge Park on Friday, and then yesterday Matt and I had to wait in our cars for almost an hour before we could walk into the cemetery. Once the rain stopped, everything started feeling unbearably hot and muggy. My hair was sticking to my face, makeup smearing, even my leg-pits were sweating. It was MISERABLE, but other than the weather, I had so much fun (like I do at every shoot with Matt).
This cemetery was definitely the most beautiful one I've ever gotten to walk. The mausoleums looked like tiny castles and the graves were arranged in neatly structured lots with well-tended greenery surrounding them. It was like visiting a pretty garden that people just so happened to be buried in. The atmosphere was peaceful too.. it was so serene and there were many places you could sit and meditate. If it were closer to me, I'd go there a lot more often to recharge.
Photoshoots have been such a healthy way for me to get out of negative headspaces. For a moment, I'm able to stop thinking and worrying about my personal life. The two shoots I had this week definitely lifted some weight off my shoulders. I visited lovely places and got to run naked in the rain. Recalling this makes me happy, but I do feel anxiety like an evil, lurking shadow in the back of my brain. My house is a mess and I don't care to clean it, there is food all over my countertops and four loads of laundry that I have to fold laying in my bedroom floor. I need to job search, I need to see my sick Abuela in Florida, I need to get vaccinated.. and now I'm stressing because I decided to use some vacation days to go to the beach with my mom and little sisters. I feel selfish that I'm planning this for us. I feel like I've wastefully spent money. All I can think about is how much I wanted to use that vacation time to go see Abuela, but my dad effectively told me no as I've never driven that far or long before (10-12 hours) and I'd have my sisters and nephew with me. The beach is much closer and my sisters and Mom want to go.. but I just feel really guilty about it. I hope we have fun though and that maybe it's the getaway I need.
PC: Matt Delaney
Comments
Carl Allen
This is an incredible shoot! I love almost every photo in here. I do hope I get a chance to do a shoot with you someday. You bring so much to the table.
Felix Elise
Thank you! I hope i can enjoy it too ;-; im sure i will once im actually there, just right now im freaking out about it all. Im glad you like the set!
Alex S.
You looks really in this amazing outfit. The hat fits you perfectly! The location and the atmosphere are also perfect! You made my monday :) I wish you strength for all that you have in mind and that you can enjoy it despite the efforts.
