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A reason to fight (personal)
🕑 Added 2024-06-08 19:13:26 +0000 UTCWhen the demon that's inside you is ready to begin / And it feels like it's a battle that you will never win / When you're aching for the fire and begging for your sin / When there's nothing left inside, there's still a reason to fight
Just a flat coloured lineart I did today. Sorry for sad stuff and complaining again, feeling totally exhausted lately. Sometimes it feels like I just won’t ever feel healthy again, it’s been over a year since I’m catching and catching infections and viruses almost every week, going to doctors, taking pills, spending almost everything I earn on medicine yet things only get worse. I was announced that there are new cysts to be removed, tonsils to be removed, too. I’ve got no savings for all of this anymore and I have to make extra money somehow :/ But sometimes I’m just apathetic about it - what if it’s just no use to fight? Ugh.
I will get back here with more positivity and nice artwork, but later. Thank you for your support!
Comments
Ketter
You and your art would be missed. Thank you for fighting.
Israel
Im sorry to hear that you are feeling unwell again... I'll do my best to keep supporting you, i've been your fan since a long time and I wish you the best now and always... get well soon!
Vicki M.
I wish I could afford to help more, I've spent a long time in a similar position and it just feels like freedom gets further and further away. Having trouble lately just affording to eat. You contribute so much inspiration and dignity, it feels like you deserve so much more than you're getting - especially with how unkind life is being to you. I just hope you get the good outcomes you've earned, that'd be something to give -everyone- hope
iamzid
hmm. if you're chronically immune deficient maybe you should reevaluate your diet and what chemicals you may be exposing yourself too. like maybe you're not getting proper vitamins or you're unknowingly breathing (or eating) something toxic and becoming weak as a result.
Vinny L
I’m really sorry that you’ve been having such a rough time, and for so long! I finally had some good fortune come my way for once in the past year, so I wanted to share it by reinstating my patronage to you. It’s all I can manage for now, but I’ll increase it once I’m more stable. I’m wishing you the best! Hang in there!
Baron Blackfox
Sorry to hear this. I can increase my tier to "extra tip" at least for some time if you need some emergency financial help, in about two weeks.
SeamusX
Letting it out helps. Those who mind, don't matter, and those who matter, don't mind.
Dimitri
I don't like reading his words, it hurts my heart to know you like that :( I know it's not easy but keep in mind that you will have better days and beautiful things to live for.
Darwinskeeper
Sorry to hear that things are going so bad for you.
ShyCyborg
Sorry to hear about your problems Iskra, I try to always support you atleast here if I can!
FortunePayback
You have a strong spirit, Iskra. you'll get through it! Best you can do, despite how difficult it might be, is to stay as optimistic as you can; always look for a reason to smile. *hugs!*
