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Feeling a bit depressed
🕑 Added 2024-09-13 22:09:19 +0000 UTCOkay so first off I'm feeling off this week.
A bit exhausted from how much time I put into chatting, Instagram, and patreon last week. Definitely made me realize that I need to get into a better pace with this stuff, which for me is difficult because I actually have found that I adore the attention and come back for it, maybe a little too much. 😅🥺
In more booby news, my endocrinologist sent me a bit more information about why my breasts haven't stopped growing. My hormones are a little high but nothing insane. However, my breast tissue seems to be hypersensitive to my hormones. Basically, the tissue has receptors in it for hormones that tell the tissue cells to divide. The more tissue cells there are, the more they receive the signal to grow. If there's prolactin or estrogen or phytoestrogen something like that. I don't know exactly the science but from what I was told, the problem is my boobs.
The fibroglandular tissue is hypersensitive. And the more tissue there is, the more tissue there is to receive the signal to grow. What's scary about this is that it means that my boobs aren't likely to slow down, they're likely to stay the same or speed up as they grow. The more boob there is, the more boob there is to be told to grow.
When it rains it pours.
Bad boob day.
What's interesting to me about hearing this is that, I thought that it would make me sad, but actually it's just made me kind of numb. They've already been growing week to week, really obviously too, but at this point I just feel kind of resigned to it. My boobs kinda stealing the show and leaving me in the background.
Depressed...
I always imagined that my writing would bring me attention. That I could right the wrongs of my lonely childhood by expressing myself. Maybe that expression would be seen by others and they would identify with my passion, and joy, and that time I dropped the pizza on the cheezy side and cried. 😬🫣
I never imagined that the way that I would be "reaching" people would be because my boobs had turned me into some genetic freak show, producing more, and more boob by the week. It's ironic, and sad? Idk. Maybe it just is what it is.
I had started trying to answer every single chat because I didn't wanna feel like I was ignoring y'all but that's obviously not sustainable because of the number of messages, but honestly I think y'all know I'm trying my best. And if you ask for more than that.... Can't do it😂
Thx for reading. Better booby days ahead
Comments
Sam Antha
Yikes: don't feel like a freak show, please don't feel depressed. The fact that people are here, and we paid to support you = love. So think of that, think of these outlets and feed off of whatever positive you can find.
Shuavvve
I hope you make yourself a priority! This is already such an amazing blog you provide on a perspective unique to you. I think you're very well spoken and I think you would've made it as a writer without the boobs but hey everything happens for a reason right?
Paulie
This resonates with me. It's a spot on description
William
You always were a genetic freak show. Now you’re just experiencing it. Helplessly bigger, thicker, smarter. Some accident occurred to the universe and you just happened to be at the center of it, and now you're entering an alternate reality where you are ascending impossibly and inexplicably, quicker every day. Completely out of control.
Aaron Aarons
I hope you have a better week and you get out of that funk. They say the #1 way to make yourself happy is to dance or eat something you like :)
Greedi
Maybe you could start streaming or vtubing? Play some of your favorite videogames and interact with your fans?
EvilSandwich
Have you considered making a Discord server or something? That way we can all talk to you in a more neat and organized way.
Yojimbo06
As an introvert myself, and someone that didn't have a lot of friends growing up, I relate and feel this very much, aside from the growing breasts. Mostly just wanna say, I'm sorry the depression is hitting you hard and I'm sending you all the sympathy I can. Hope some good boob days are to come and wish you all the best with whatever happens from this point on.
Styromaniac
If it's unbearable, I hope you consider surgical or medication options and can afford them. Yeah, I came here as a freaky dude, but suffering like this is no good. There is no coping with the pain it can bring.
WillL
Sounds like you are introverting too much!!!
Chase Thomas Grebb
From one lonely childhood adult trying to express themselves creatively/sexually to another: i see you. It’s hard to block out the people who don’t see & Worship the whole person. You’re doing a good job, in general. Highs & lows, strikes & gutters. Pools of Sorrow, Waves of Joy. Good times will return. As much as i am obviously a fan of Growing Goddess Boobs, i’m here to Worship & Encourage the whole human. Thank you for sharing. Be well!
John Smith
It will eventually become impossible to answer everyone personally as ur page grows. I’ve been feeling really done aswell but for very different reasons pertaining to things I can’t change. Just know we hear you and we care about you. Please take care!
