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Not even my party
🕑 Added 2025-06-14 13:36:24 +0000 UTCRick and Marta had always been that couple. Playful. Bold. Just sober enough to smile through things others would shy away from. They weren’t famous, not really, but in a town like this, attending every garden barbecue and wine-laced birthday was enough to make them familiar faces.
So when Daryl, Rick’s childhood best friend, announced his thirty-fifth birthday bash, and promised a theme that no one would see coming, Rick barely blinked. He trusted Daryl’s taste about as far as he could throw him, but Marta was already buzzing.
Her idea came on a lazy Sunday afternoon, coffee half-drunk, music low, while Rick scrolled through party memes and Marta watched him with that quiet, scheming grin of hers.
"I have an idea," she said.
Rick barely looked up. "Shoot."
"You and I. We go as each other."
He blinked. "What?"
"Think about it," Marta said, her grin widening. "Everyone will show up in something cliché. Superheroes. Celebs. But us? No one will expect you in my dress. Full look. Wig, makeup, attitude."
He laughed, at first. But her eyes sparkled. And her smile wasn’t just teasing. It was persuasive, dangerous even. The kind of smile that made him say yes before thinking.
"You’re serious?"
She tilted her head. “Dead serious. And you’d look adorable.”
He didn’t know what got him more, the challenge in her tone, or the weird thump in his chest when she said adorable. Either way, he agreed.
---
Party Day
Marta worked on Rick like a woman possessed. She wasn’t just dressing him up, she was transforming him.
Shaved. Moisturized. Eyeliner drawn with care. Foundation dabbed until his cheeks glowed. The wig, dark brown like hers, hugged his skull tightly, bobby pins in place.
The dress was tight, snug at the waist, short at the thigh. Marta insisted he wear her heels too. He stumbled at first, then found a rhythm.
Looking in the mirror, Rick couldn’t help but snort. "This is ridiculous."
"You’re beautiful," Marta said, adjusting his lipstick. "Not perfect, but you’ll pass. And that’s the point."
She was right. He didn’t look like a drag queen or a joke. He looked… like Marta’s little sister. Too smooth. Too pretty for his own good. But still him, beneath it all.
---
The Party
Daryl’s house was already humming when they arrived, 25 people, maybe more. Laughter and music spilled from open windows. Costumes everywhere, someone dressed like a priest with devil horns, a woman in a banana suit, and a man in full Victorian corset.
But all heads turned when Rick walked in on Marta’s arm.
Someone whistled.
“Holy hell, Marta, your twin’s hot!”
And just like that, Rick became the party’s focus. People offered him drinks. Compliments. Laughter. Some were obviously flirting, thinking it was a game. Rick played along. After a few cocktails, the line between roleplay and reality blurred.
Then someone said, "We should do her brows."
It was a joke. Probably. But Rick, red-cheeked and giggling, leaned in. “Sure, go ahead.”
The room erupted. A girl plucked his eyebrows into sharp, feminine curves. Someone added more blush. Another tied a scarf around his neck. His dress was pulled lower. He didn’t stop it. In fact, he kind of loved it.
And Marta? She just watched with that same amused smile. She wasn’t stopping it either.
Not when someone fetched false lashes.
Not when they added perfume behind his ears.
Not when someone changed his shoes for taller, sleeker heels.
Not when someone whispered something lewd in his ear and he bit his lip, smiling.
The air was thick inside the house now. Music pulsed through the walls, bodies pressed close in laughter, dancing, games. Rick floated through it all, high on attention and alcohol. Every time someone shouted "Rick, over here!" or "You’re killing it, girl!", he felt something warm and electric roll up his spine.
Somewhere past midnight, he stopped correcting them when they called him “she.”
His voice had softened. Not intentionally, maybe it was the drinks, or maybe it was something else, but it came out lighter, flirtier. He played into it, tossing his fake hair back with practiced flicks, posing for pictures, even sitting differently. Crossed legs. Hips tilted.
Then the dares started.
“Lip gloss!” someone yelled, and a tube was in his face.
He puckered.
“Choker!”
On it went. One girl in a pink corset found a pair of sheer thigh-highs and insisted he try them. Another handed Marta a tube of something industrial.
"Spirit gum," she said with a wink, handing it off to a pair of tipsy women. “You don’t want his wig falling off, right?”
The wig was glued.
Then the lashes.
Then, somehow, the earrings.
At some point, they swapped his panties for something lacier, slid garters up his legs. He didn’t remember when. Or who. Just the feeling of smooth fingers and excited voices.
Then came the kiss.
Not from Marta. Not from a friend. From some tall, older guy in a leather jacket and five o’clock shadow, who cornered Rick in the hallway with a crooked smile and a bottle of whiskey.
“You’re the prettiest thing in this house,” he murmured.
Rick laughed. Blushed. Let the man brush a thumb across his cheek.
And then they were in the bathroom.
Hands groping. Lips messy. A zipper tugged. Something heavy, thick, in his hand. He knelt. Everything spun. He laughed again, or maybe cried. He didn’t know.
The next moment, darkness.
---
Rick woke up to a smell of stale alcohol and the ache of regret.
His head pounded.
He was on a couch, not the one he arrived on, and certainly not beside Marta.
He sat up, groaning.
His chest felt tight. Fabric clung to him, glued in places. His wig, still there, itched. He reached up to pull it off… and it didn’t move. He tugged harder.
It stayed.
So did the false lashes. And the choker. And the glued-on acrylic nails.
“Oh… no,” he croaked.
His voice sounded wrong. Higher. Tighter.
He looked down. The dress was tighter than before, had someone re-fit it? His bra stuffed and shaped to obscene roundness. The garters clung to his thighs, the heels were still on his feet.
He stood up slowly, wincing as his legs trembled.
Bodies slept on the floor, scattered and limp.
In the kitchen, he found Daryl. And Marta.
Both looked far too awake.
Daryl sipped coffee and smirked.
“Morning, superstar.”
Rick's cheeks burned. “What… what happened last night?”
Daryl glanced at Marta, who only shrugged, way too casually.
“You don’t remember the bathroom?” Daryl asked.
Rick froze.
Then the flash came, brief, blurred, disgusting. Him kneeling. Wet sounds. A zipper. A grunt.
His breath caught.
“Oh god…”
“You were better than half the girls here,” Daryl added, laughing.
Rick’s stomach twisted. He backed away from the counter, dizzy.
He turned to Marta. “Why didn’t you stop it?”
She shrugged again, this time with a strange softness.
“Because you didn’t want me to.”
Then she reached into a drawer and handed him a note. It was written in lipstick on napkin paper.
“You said you never felt that free in your life. That you wished it could last.”
Rick stared at it, eyes wide.
Then Marta added, “By the way… that glue we used? Takes about 48 hours to dissolve.”
Rick slammed the bathroom door shut behind him and locked it with trembling fingers. He leaned against the cold tile wall, panting, staring at his reflection in the mirror. The girl in the glass wasn’t Marta, but she wasn’t him either. Not anymore.
His makeup had smudged in places, lipstick faintly smeared, but the lashes remained dramatic. The glued wig sat perfect on his head, every hair in place. His cheeks were pinked, his brows curved. He touched them. Still there. Still wrong.
He reached under the dress, fumbling for zippers, for straps, anything, but every seam was sealed. His panties, the garter belt, the thigh-highs… all stuck to him like second skin. His heart raced.
“Shit… shit.”
He splashed cold water on his face, hoping, praying, he’d wake up.
He didn’t.
The dress clung to him as he opened the door again and tiptoed through the battlefield of passed-out guests. Bottles, confetti, half-empty glasses, someone snoring face-down in cake. It smelled like sweat, booze, and something worse.
He found his phone in the living room, cracked screen blinking: 9:42 AM. Forty-eight hours. That’s what Marta said. That’s what she knew. And she let it happen.
Rick tried to tell himself she didn’t mean it cruelly. That maybe she thought it was funny. Or sexy. Or liberating.
But his stomach turned. He didn’t want to be liberated.
He wanted out.
---
Walking Back Into Reality
Rick slipped on a borrowed hoodie, though it barely reached his thighs, and tried to leave quietly. But the heels clicked on every damn surface, each step a reminder. He took them off and walked barefoot through dew-wet grass.
Outside, the street was alive again. Birds chirped. A jogger passed. A car drove slowly by.
Rick’s heart leapt into his throat. He ducked his head, praying no one would recognize him. But of course, small town. Curious eyes. Whispers.
He didn’t have his keys. Or wallet. Or anything remotely male left on him.
He walked quickly.
Then slower.
Then stopped entirely.
He could feel the cool air creeping up under the short hem of the dress. The lacy fabric brushing his thighs. His lips still tasted faintly of someone else.
What did I do?
He remembered flashes. Tongue. Skin. The way the man grabbed his hair. He wasn’t even sure if he said no. Or yes. It all came in blurry fragments, like watching a stranger’s mistake.
But it was him.
He passed a group of teenagers sitting on a porch. One of them whistled. "Hey, girl!"
Rick kept walking. Too fast now. Legs shaky. He nearly tripped.
His house was four blocks away. Every step was agony. Every window, every passing car felt like it saw too much.
---
Rick finally reached his building, managed to sneak through the side entrance. He buzzed himself in with a backup code, head spinning, praying the neighbor didn’t see him.
Inside, the apartment was quiet. Clean. His normal world.
But as he stood in the middle of the living room, still dressed like some club-ready caricature of femininity, the silence became unbearable.
He collapsed onto the couch, hugging a pillow to his chest.
His phone buzzed.
A message from Marta.
“Hey. Just checking if you’re okay. Call me.”
The clock ticked.
Rick sat alone in his apartment, the dress still tight around his ribs, wig glued firmly to his scalp, nails tapping restlessly against his coffee table. The heels sat discarded near the door. His phone had stopped buzzing. Marta hadn’t called again.
He hadn't eaten. He hadn't showered, couldn’t, really. The glue might react. He didn’t want to make it worse.
He sat there in silence, one leg tucked beneath him, the other dangling off the edge of the couch. He realized, not for the first time, that even the way he was sitting didn’t feel… right. Not for him. Or maybe it did?
Who the hell am I right now?
His fingers moved to the edge of the wig again. He scratched. Tugged. Nothing.
Then he walked to the bathroom, again, and looked at himself in the mirror.
He expected disgust.
He didn’t feel it.
The smudged makeup. The lashes. The lips. The brows. The smoothness. The slight roundness pushed up by the padded bra. The posture.
It wasn’t him.
But it wasn’t a stranger either.
God, what if this is what I actually look like on the inside?
That thought, cold and quiet, slipped into his head and refused to leave.
---
He splashed water on his face, dried it carefully, and stared again. The lashes still held. The lipstick was half-faded, but there was color in his cheeks.
He opened his mouth, practiced a line.
“I’m Rick.”
Then, softer.
“I’m… her.”
He laughed once. Nervous. Hollow.
Then he sat down on the closed toilet seat and held his face in both hands.
Did I like what happened?
Of course not. It was humiliating. Wild. Out of control. He didn’t remember most of it.
But… did I hate it?
That was a harder question.
He remembered the attention. The way people looked at him. The compliments. The flirtations. The glances of envy, real or imagined, from other women.
And Daryl…
His stomach knotted again.
Was I really… into that?
He thought of kneeling. Of the weight in his mouth. Of the way Daryl’s hand curled in the wig and tugged gently.
His legs pressed together.
He wanted to throw up.
He wanted to feel it again.
---
This isn’t me.
But even as he thought it, the words felt like a lie. Or maybe a defense. A last stand.
The truth?
He didn’t know who he was.
He’d always been a little small, a little quiet. Not weak, but... easy to miss. He was the kind of man who blended in, who didn’t raise his voice. People liked him. Marta adored him. But nobody stared at him the way they did her.
The girl at the party.
The slut in the heels.
Me.
He leaned forward, staring into the mirror, and let the thought settle like dust.
Maybe this is a part of me I’ve always been afraid of.
And maybe the part that panicked so hard this morning wasn’t disgusted. Maybe it was terrified. Terrified that if he admitted it, if he opened the door, there’d be no going back.
He touched his lips again. The gloss was gone, but the shape still looked soft.
---
Later That Night
He didn’t call Marta. He didn’t text anyone.
But when the sun began to set, he dimmed the lights. Put on music. Nothing loud, just something with a slow beat, something he could move to.
And he stood in front of the mirror again.
This time, he danced.
Alone. Softly. Awkwardly. Then slowly, more confidently.
The dress swayed with his body.
His hips followed the rhythm without thought.
It had been nearly a year since the party.
The dress was long gone, burned, actually, in a symbolic gesture Rick insisted on one rainy Sunday evening. But not everything had vanished with it. Some things had stayed. Grown. Blossomed.
Rick sat on the café terrace, legs crossed, a cigarette balanced between two carefully manicured fingers. The sun dipped low behind the rooftops of town, casting gold across his cheekbones, his smooth jawline, his soft lips, naturally full now, no makeup required. Though he still wore it when he wanted to.
Across the square, two men turned to look at him, murmuring to each other. Rick caught it. He always did now.
He didn’t turn away.
He smiled.
---
Everyone in town knew her now.
They still called her Rick, or Ricki, depending on who you asked, and nobody could quite say when things changed. Only that they had. She didn’t announce anything. No big declarations. No slogans.
But one day she was in flats, the next she was in heels. Then a skirt. Then a tighter shirt. One day, earrings. Then lip gloss. Then perfume. And eventually, one night, a man’s coat around her shoulders, shielding the skin she’d let him taste under the streetlight.
---
Marta had taken it all in stride.
They never broke up. They never stopped loving each other. But something shifted. They talked for hours, long, raw talks that sometimes ended in tears, sometimes in kisses, sometimes in laughter.
Eventually, Marta gave him a kiss on the cheek and said, “You were never mine to keep. But I’m glad I helped you find yourself.”
They still lived together. They still held hands. They still went out for drinks.
But sometimes, Rick wouldn’t come home until morning.
And sometimes, Marta didn’t either.
No jealousy. No fear. Just a kind of shared truth.
They had opened their love, and in doing so, they had freed themselves.
---
People whispered at first. Of course they did. This was a small town.
But then, things changed. Ricki became a regular at the wine bar. A muse to a local painter. A viral clip from a pride event dancing in the rain. She didn’t chase fame, it just clung to her.
The straight men were the ones most confused by her. Drawn to her. Afraid to admit it.
Until they weren’t.
Some nights, Ricki brought one home.
And she’d whisper in his ear, “You want to see what it’s like to touch the prettiest girl in town?”
Most said yes.
Few forgot it.
---
She still had doubts, sometimes.
Nights when she looked in the mirror and saw the ghost of the man she once was.
But even then, it didn’t feel like shame.
Just memory.
Just a path she walked.
And every time she looked around, at Marta’s knowing smile, at her own legs stretched out in heels, at the soft lips of a man leaning in to kiss her neck, she understood:
She hadn’t been broken that night.
She’d been revealed.
