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🕑 Added 2022-08-16 20:51:43 +0000 UTCUpdate
Sigh… wanted to make a post to rant a bit and also talk on some recent situation…
For the past few months it has been quite stressing for me… It was really good that I manage to pull through and finished “Richelieu X Le Malin : Bubble tea shop”, such super difficult idea that I have store in my mind for year, but unfortunately nothing works out as well as I hoped… I thought this set of drawing will be a big hit, but instead it barely got any publicity, with a very lackluster viewcount on pixiv, which seems to be an ongoing pattern as my latest works struggle to gain any views. This heavily damage my self-confidence and makes me question if my art skill has decline or is my new works simply not interesting anymore…
Then suddenly I was hit by many emails from Gumroad, and it turns out a person somehow manage to find a loophole in the Gumroad payment, and scammed me of 30+ products without paying at all… I have been contacting both Gumroad and Paypal, but given how their customer service are somewhat useless, I doubt I can get my money back…
The stress combining with the bad sleeping pattern and lack of exercise, has lead to numerous health problem recently… I have been suffering from Chronic Pharyngitis recently, sometimes it got so bad it feels like I cannot breathe when I lie down in bed… There were times I actually scared of dying then almost got into a panic attack… Then back pain, chest pain, all sort of bullshiet because I never really take care of body properly… Overall the whole situation is a big mess and it just makes me feel more depressed about my choices in life that lead to my current situations… Lots of regret thinking maybe I should just stop drawing, that this was a huge mistake and I should have never take on this challenge doing something I am not even good at…
Emo-ness aside, I actually feel somewhat motivated during past few weeks when I start working on the Onsen drawing. I aimed to finish it before the 5th anniversary of Azur Lane Japanese server, but from the looks of it now it is very unlikely I can achieve that… For the past few days I have been trying to colour some of the characters, but something just doesn’t feel right… So I decide to compare some of my shitty works to the pro artists’ stuff, and I realize my choice of skin colours are actually quite terrible… I don’t know when did I start using the colours I am currently using, but it simply looks too yellowy and I really need a new set of colours so the characters will look paler and prettier… So after days of struggles, I think I finally got something that works… I used the recent “Richelieu X Le Malin” to test out the new colours, after much struggled, I manage to get something that looks somewhat decent, and hopefully can help make future drawings look more attractive… Please let me know what you guys think of this ><
Anyway, sorry for long post, thanks for reading.
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Thanks for your kind words... (っ- ‸ – ς)Haha honesting I didn't notice about the skin colour as well which is why I have been using it for years XD But o well I hope these new colours will help make the characters look more attractive than before~
Thanks for you kind words... I will continue give it my best ＼（＠；◇；＠）／
Michou
Your art skill is great, and you have lots of talent. You really have nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to drawing. The quality is so good that I think no one noticed about the colour bit before you pointed it out with a side-by-side comparison (at least I know I didn't). Hope the health problems go away soon, as well as your insecurities. It would be a shame to lose such a talented artist
Sorry to hear about what happened to you. I've always love your work, the ideas in your drawings is mind blowing and I love them more than any other I've ever seen, please never stop creating. Hopeyou get well soon.<3
