Waltzpurgis
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COVID and mental health
🕑 Added 2021-06-16 18:58:46 +0000 UTCFirst of all I want to apologize for my absence all these days, on the one hand I was in bed and isolated after having been infected with Covid through a family member, it has been a long process, however currently we feel better and we're no longer contagious.
In addition to that, I have been dragging thoughts and emotions that have made a snowball effect for a couple of months and together with fear and uncertainty regarding COVID and many other things related to the country, the migration process, work, vaccination and others ... They have caused me to relapse into one of the highest peaks of anxiety I have had in the last... 4/5 years maybe.
I knew it was happening and I couldn't stop it, little by little I started to get away from the people around me, I started to stop talking to my friends and eventually I realized the enormous anxiety that even having to talk to someone generated in me. I started to be afraid to talk to my own friends. My sleep schedules became laughable to the point that most of the time I only slept 3 or 4 hours a day.
Right now Im in one of the darkest places I have ever been, hating myself and feeling disappointed for not being able to cope with the things that have been happening, as well as the disappointment of having failed with everything I had been doing with you and with the Patreon.
Tomorrow I will start contacting you about the pending commissions, I will give my all to finish the pending sketches, the colored ones and others from last month, however this month (the full body color commissions) must be postponed for the following month. I will talk with you about what options you prefer to handle it.
Again, I apologize about everything.
Comments
Storyfan134
I hope my letter from way back can still offer you something. Even if we don't talk as much, don't forget I'm always here for you, and I'm always rooting for the day your life becomes an actual life of joy and happiness. It's the fucking worst over there, and Covid makes it hell. I'm so sorry someone as talented and sweet as you has to deal with it, but I'm proud of you for making it this far.
Undertaker
Hey, you. I sent you some stuff over Discord, but I think the responses you’ve been getting here help prove that stuff. We’re here to support you and cheer you on. Not to throw logs of mounting anxiety onto the fire, but to try and help you live your best life. The responsibility can feel like a ton of weight, and I know for a fact how it feels when you worry that you might be falling ever further behind. That mixed with getting sick and seeing all that you have over the past year, it’s no wonder you feel the way that you have. Nobody is judging or talking down to you though. We’re all still here, still trying to support you can help you get to the spot you want to be. We’ve faith in you to get there :) and are doin our best to help. If you ever need to chat, just hit any of us up, okay? Even if it’s just to vent. Lord knows I’ve vented to you more than a few times over these past few years hahaha 😂
Nox_Frappe
No issue! Keep going, things are sure to get better!
Popelipo
I am really glad to hear something from you, been worried since no one knew why you have been gone for a bit. Dont feel any pressure about having to get things done as soon as possible, just take the time you need and make sure to take care of yourself!
Berry's Bakery
These are hard times, and especially troubling in your country as well. We'll keep you in our thoughts, and hopefully things will begin to look positive from here ^^
Some Dude
Thank you for telling us. I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t been worried but knowing that you are passed the virus is great news. I really hope that you can start feeling better about things now and get to enjoy the pieces you’re working on. Take as long as you need.
