Icymasamune
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🕑 Added 2025-05-29 07:41:44 +0000 UTCNo art dump this month because, as you can see: I got absolutely nothing done so there isn't anything to put into it.
At this point I understand people bailing on account of how spotty and low quality my updates have been the past two years, no hard feelings - it's completely understandable. But to everyone who stays I deeply appreciate your patience.
ok but why this month? I don't like talking about my "personal excuses" but you might know about two years ago I finally got out from under a huge debt only to be diagnosed with a heart issue. Beginning of this month I had a pretty bad episode with my heart, needed my medication updated, had some financial problems that needed to be taken care of, the world is on fire, and a family member was diagnosed with something not great.
I basically shut down completely. I took a bunch of emergency sketch commissions (I have a list they are not getting dismissed), and then the stress of it all and the fact I don't know if I can pay my bills just broke me entirely. I spent most of today having a panic attack in the shower.
I have a few days before the end of the month, and then some time before I have to pay rent. I can still do the sketch commissions and be ok. But I need to accept that I failed to update this month and move on so the stress isn't killing me about being a failure all the time.
I understand this means I failed to update this month and you have every right to be upset about that. But I won't have anything next month if I just let myself drown here.
Comments
Mindwipe
My condolences on the health issues. It sounds like you're in a really rough place, I hope you have some irl people who can support you and help you manage such a stressful situation.
justalurker101
Don’t worry about us. Take care of yourself and your needs first.
