Process & Brushes & Thoughts

Thank you ;_; It's almost a miracle that I survived those years into this journey and your support definitely helps a ton to keep me being motivated.

Hey don't feel bad about not having rewards out. I think following your journey to improve your technique is more than worth it^^ Also, you really deserve a break.

Oh thank you for your cheerful words ;_; Always nice to know how everyone getting through creator blocks. Originally I plan to discuss more process, but it's probably better to share after I'm sure what it yields. I felt quite guilty not being able to be as productive as I used to be for a long time, and I assume it's because my work doesn't match my vision from years ago. And for years I'm seeking the way to catch up with the vision. I've been suggested face to face actually, that I should be back to be more productive and create what I can. Therefore I can at least stay relevant to the market and gather more resource. But I guess it's just too hard to turn back since years already spent on this trial. Anyway, yeah, I definitely need something to refresh my brain. Since the mood and confidence definitely play an important role while creating. I'll be back a couple of days later! 💪

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I am so thankful for this post! It's very insightful I really need to study more of your process, it gives so much knowledge! I can't help but feel hyped every time a new post on Patreon shows up haha <3 From my perspective, if you feel you're finally nearing your personal goal- it's more important to keep the work up! And you deserve the support regardless of rewards you're delivering. To be honest, the vision of you creating the whole artbook with such quality pieces is super exciting! I know I am nothing near your level and way less experienced but I totally get you struggling and getting depressed over the piece. It's a terrible place to be in your mind, I admire how you keep fighting and getting stronger by it, it's SO inspiring! A short break might be good too it helps to rewire your brain, maybe you'll come up with new ideas for problem-solving your process! I noticed I have huge composition problem I tried to fight it really hard in an overly technical way with a disappointing outcome. But to my surprise when I just let go of it I suddenly just got....maybe not super better, but fluid and a bit more confident? I got super fixated on the process and forgot to trust my intuition, which sometimes is not a bad thing at all! Whatever you decide on I'm glad I can support you nonetheless, love being here and seeing you work! Hang in there, everyone is cheering on you!!

Thank you😭 It's almost pure luck that I can at least render his head. Someday I'll find the perfect way to paint his sexy body.

Aww thank you ;_; Everyday I start work with depression and end with frustration. They are like my long-time co-workers😆 I'm lucky to have support on Patreon and this place is now my main motive to keep improving.

感謝太太這麼支持😭不知為何我一用圓筆那些調子就會越塗越平，只好來學怎麼用扁筆刷orz活到現在我其實只會用Painter的圓筆尖，自從換軟體後至今都還在適應不良中囧 PS好難入門啊我大概還要幾年才能習慣它

Thank you for your kindness😭 I'm feeling super lucky that Patreon exists, otherwise I'll probably give up months ago. Guessing there are still couples of months spared for me to improve my painting! BTW I already forget how to not struggle for every work. 😆

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Even your frustration work is beautiful to me.

Don't worry about taking your time finding the best way for you to create. Patreon is a support system, I personally think it's more meaningful to show support in your journey to create what you love regardless getting rewards or not. That aside, I do enjoy seeing the broken down process of your work flow. It makes me think of how I approach my paintings more closely and I'm relieved that the frustration is not uncommon haha XD;;

太太加油！ヾ(◍°∇°◍)ﾉﾞ这一张光影感觉很唯美，可能跟你的目标有差距，但是也不要心灰意冷啊！其实用扁平笔刷塑造好难，看到你用扁平笔刷刻画还能画出这么厉害的调子真的惊了，加油哦~~

How cool!!! Ive always admired your work, and its almost a relief to see that your work is a struggle- but it looks BEAUTIFUL. I really appreciate all the time you spend on it! I always feel like the people who love your work will be willing to wait for your paintings, no matter how long it takes :)