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The April 2022 sets
🕑 Added 2022-04-30 23:13:40 +0000 UTCThere's only one thing to say about this month's contents: I did not believe I could manage to share them, until two minutes ago. It's not even April anymore, while I'm typing these words. I was ready, for the first time in 5 years, to give up my duty to repay your support, and refund all of you.
Two years ago, I quit my cinema and art history studies to follow a dream I never dared to even think about before: become a scientist. I never dared, because since I can remember, I've been encouraged to only follow a humanistic career. My sensitiveness for beauty and interest for art, my spontaneous creativity and lack of competitive drive, and probably also my gender, made my parents (and all my mentors) believe that it would have been a waste to let me try for a career that involved logic. Unluckily, their beliefs became mine, so I acted like I had no left brain hemisphere for most of my life. One day I woke up and decided that I was much more than what my parents saw in me; since that day, I've been fighting to prove myself right.
I never shared with you this story, because I thought that the revolution happening in my private life would never affect the work I do for you. I was terribly wrong; this month's delay proves it. The hard to swallow pill is that I fail in keeping up with everything every single day. I am constantly brought to choose what to neglect: if my studies, my work or my own health. Days are never long enough and energies fade away too fast to feel young - as I should.
Giving up is not a choice, because my studies depend on my Patreon, and my health too, but I really miss those times in which I was free to create only to please my soul, and not for the need to survive. I am aware that I need to put more effort here, and I will. I hope you will be present to see the day in which I'll manage to keep my life together. I hope you will win you own fight in life, and reach your dreams.
Thank you for all.
