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Where I've been - The update.
🕑 Added 2020-07-01 01:45:36 +0000 UTCHello everyone
TL/DR: The month of May left me heart and mentally broken in an unexpected way, so I needed to take some time for myself. Will be back to my normal shit next month.
First, apologies for the delay on the post. We've been going through a bit of a heat wave here in Portugal with high humidity and high temperatures, without an AC at home and barely any wind, the only thing you really want to do is lay low with refreshments and hopes of a better, less hot weather.
So, going straight to the point and problem. This year has been a tough one for everyone due to the corona, and personally not being social with my family, seeing my old folks health deteriorate and the risk of being infected getting higher and higher, it will start to build on you. Currently I've been away for a month and a half without being productive at all and I wish to give some insight on this about why, how and all that. Let me first say I hate being radio silent to anyone, that is you patrons or clients or friends, anyone really. Unfortunately, I had to stay away for my mental health to recover and this time it was far longer than it should've been.
As I mentioned before, I don't have much of a personal life, all I do is get up, go to the computer, work and get prompt to talk about the same topic all day, every day, and go back to sleep, ironically a feeling of a routine that belongs to a robot. Due to that, when there's an opening to expand my personal life, I always grab it and take some time to focus on it. The month of May was exactly for that. It was a wild ride of an emotional rollercoaster with someone, and what was built was starting to feel like paradise... until the least thing you expect, happens. A water bucket that hits your face so you wake up from it all. Something this "dream" informs you that it doesn't want to go beyond what there is. I don't wish to go on detail but having to brutally stop a really good time with someone is one of the most horrific experiences I've ever had, and even to this day I still feel I'm recovering from it. This lead me to some serious mental issues and I haven't been depressed about anything like I was then. I've never really taken the time off like this before and leaving behind my discord server and twitter media just to focus on myself and better myself, alone and away from all of this.
We're all humans in the end, we have emotions and have to deal with it the best we can.
"What about art, or maybe any good news?"
Well, yes I always think of what to draw and what projects I'd love to get into! The more I stay away from drawing, the most I polish the ideas in my head, and currently I have a few, even started a game project! A bit early to talk about this one (as I've tried to make games before but never get finished) but maybe this one isn't of a super large scope and the previous ones? Who knows... Added to all that, I'll be going back to commission work and FINALLY reworking all the things I wanted to do regarding my contents presentation and all that.
There's no actual art made this month so I can't do much, so I'll be giving all patrons (even the $1 tier) some art drops, they'll be sorted out and sent tomorrow.
Thanks for reading, and I hope you understand my side of things.
Stay safe everyone.
Comments
Echonioni
Do what you need to do. Art will always be there but we can't say the same about our families. Well wishes, we can wait.
Simone Spinozzi
good luck. Don't worry, i will be waiting, but still... thanks for letting us know and thanks for the art.
MechaBlerd
You do what you gotta do.
