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kaien’s eclipse pt 9: identity crisis 🎭

🕑 Added 2024-07-03 15:25:10 +0000 UTC

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Sol D.G

this hits too close to home 😭❤️

TJ

His supportive smile he’s trying so hard 😭😭😭

Cypher

Yama rly said 😬🌝 they’re so precious 😭🫶

Vanessa N

I am so smitten with the fact that Kaien went to Tobio to talk about this and not to Shouyou. They both have their own social struggles, but I think hearing about these struggles from someone who can also understands how impactful it is for your sets to be hindered by these emotions will mean so much. And I love how Tobio reassures him that it may be difficult, but they wouldn’t be here if they weren’t excited to see HIM. Also, special shoutout to Tobio’s supportive smile LOL

2danimehoe

"Which me are they here for tho?? What if I annoy and disappoint them?" WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS TOO RELATABLE?!!! I'm actually setting tears, because this is a constant struggle for me

sunoo-ssi

that smile. that damn smile.

kayla

KAGEYAMA SEEING HIS YOUNGER SELF IN KAIEN😭😭

Celina

God damn does Kageyama look fine af 😭

Kiara W

The ‘which me is the best fit for the situation’ is so relatable. I love the way you’ve created all of these beautiful personalities and families.

Smalt✨

This is what I needed to read 😭 this healed me up so much🥺🥺🫶🏻🫶🏻

Lye

Honestly as someone who also had to do most of growing up abroad, I feel like this is one of the most accurate descriptions of the feelings you have when you come back and see things have changed. It’s really tough seeing that people you were once leveled with have grown together without you while you feel stuck. You don’t know if they’ll like how you’ve changed and matured yourself either, and it’s like this horrible identity crisis. I love Kaien so much it’s okay bby things will get better ♥️♥️♥️

MJ

I like that shoyo promised to put her down for her nap and tobio did it anyway 😭

Laney

The smile. Oh Tobio the smile. 🤣🤣 Also I just wanna give Kaien the hugest hug ever. Plus the Tobio of the past. 🥺🥺 This was so good.

ae

LIL TOBIO FLASHBACK IS SOOOO FOUL IM SICK!!!!!!!!!!!

Inna

His supportive smile 🤣🤣 Kaien ended up going to papayama! Aww 🥹 I hope he becomes comfortable with them again. I know it's hard to get close to childhood friends when you haven't seen them in years. They love you Kaien 😭💕 Also omg is that Kags in the "hollywood" cap looking to hinata??

mir

this is so sweeet

Jess MCR

Supportive smile 😭😭😭😭 but no, “which me are they here for?” Broke my heart into pieces. NEED THAT CONFIDENCE DROP ASAP

Kirari

Kaien my love 🥹🥹🥹 Kags showing his alfa side aka papa bear while holding Kanae, I can't 🤧🥰 and his supportive 'smile' lmaooo Thank you for your work 🤍🤍🤍

Chanel Gravier

Omg I think I might cry 😭😭😭 papayama flashback 😭😭😭

Hannah

Not the middle school Kageyama though😭

Faylan Lee

Papayama was everything and more. 😭 thank you so much for this connecting moment! I really feel like he would have responded exactly like that angry thinking he's being left out compassionate knowing they are the same person everything about this was perfect 😍 ps. Seriously PapaYama was 🥵 delicious

Zify

AWWW STOP PAPAYAMA🥹❤️

LeeTaeRyeo

Oh, Kaien sweetie! That's heartbreaking. 😭 Also, god love Tobio, but his smile is always gonna look awkward, isn't it? But I love him being the papa Kaien went to

Pawtiful

AS A SETTER, THIS IS SERIOUS NGNFNGNG ALLY LMFAOOOOOOOOO I love silly-yama so much 🥹🥹🥹 love the papa son bonding, Tobio just gets him so much and does everything he can to calm Kaien down <33 gave me flashbacks to Nao birth arc when Tobio was the only one who was able to calm Nao down. Now he might be the only one to calm Kaien down, eh?

Gypsy Wolf

Tobio looks so good with that white in his hair🥵Also his protective side coming out when he thought Kaien was being left out 🥺 I wanna give Kaien a big hug he’s so sweet🥹

jesu

I HAVE A WHALE TOO this melted my heart

gin

the quotation marks around "smile" made me laugh, then i teared up over poor kaien's struggle 😭

sett4r

PAPAYAMAAAAAA

Evelyn Henriquez

😁😁😁 not the “smile” awww papa yama! You’re the best. Thank you Kkumri for this. This takes me back to my dad & me having talks like this.

junie

soo good your artstyle always draws ones attention it’s so beautiful 🥹

Sash

oh man, Papayama’s fangs coming out when he thinks his kid is being left out is so ferociously precious 😭

SaraHina

THE SUPPORTIVE SMILE, I CAN'T 😂

Maybe Anya

'which me are they here for?' omg kaien my baby boy let me give you a hug😭

Julia

Papayama is everything I need 😭🤌🏻

Emptee

Ma'am I am reading this at work and I have Many thoughts and emotions that I will be commenting once I can scream

Dante

Kageyama seeing himself in Kaien 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭 I'm /sobbing/

DarklyBlue

😬😂

Marie

THE SUPPORTIVE ‘SMILE’ THOUGH 😭💕

Mari Fazekas

LMAO kag’s smile is sending me. Papayama with his kids is so freaking cute

sam!

SOBBING SEEING PAPAYAMA BE PAPA-Y WAHHHHHHHH

Viking

But yeah, that 'which me are they here for' is...uhhhhhh, awful, just awful to feel

Viking

Hahahaha, not the Hollywood cap making a reapearance!

Honey

Papayama and his babies 😭😭 I would like to see Kanae’s birth/Kaien meeting her for the first time, super excited because he finally got a baby sibling 🥺🩷

Zen O

It just hit me that Tobio was also so worried to fit in he literally turned into someone else and completely lost his confidence as a setter, something that Kaien is considering doing just to fit back into what's starting to feel more like a new group of friends then an old one.. ‼️

Fio

ALLLYYYY I AM EMOTIONAL

kerol

kageyama kept growing all these years 😭 to his kid it looked like he was taking it all so easily in brazil 🥹 and it's so comforting to see that kaien has space and feels safe to reach for his dads to open up and ask for help ;; thank you for this update, ally! it was a great one 💕

Yura

Kaien my baby 🥺🥺🥺

LJ

Papayama 😭😭 his smile, his flashback, his understanding, his protectiveness... Ugh he's so good. I really love how you're writing them!!

atsuoiomi

papayamaaaa i'm gonna cry he's adorable ;-; 💞💞💞💞 trying his very best !!!!

moon

PAPA TO PLEASE I WANT A SUPPORTIVE DEEP TALK TOO

Smes

Papayamas supportive smile 💀💀💀

~nani•☆♡shhh⁷

Why? Why the hell did I think I'd be fine opening this update at work?! I'm so dumb pls I'm literally cryin at my desk when I have to be working on a report but I wanted to take a 10 min break and now it's gonna be longer cuz I can't focus back on the report papayama has both broken and healed my heart in this chapter alone and baby kaien my Lil baby pls I wanna give him the biggest hug ever pls😭😭😭🫂😭😭😭 Thank you so much for this update ally I loved it so much, cuz seeing how safe and comfy kaien felt to go to papayama to ask for advice and papayama being ready to help and protect whenever needed, it's truly healing so thank you and I love ya😭🫂🥰🩷💐

Sydney

I love supportive papayama 🙏🏻 and the fact that Kaien is now just as old as Tobio when he met Karasuno and made new friends just hits different. Everything will work out 💕

Nana

Oh, Kaien, baby… I want to hug him ;~; And Tobio is such a good dad, doing his best for his boy… My heart is so warm after reading this part ♡ I really hope everything goes well for Kaien soon!

Jay

ay miamor 😭 I feel so bad for him my baby!!😭😭

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The supportive smile! Also, I’m sure Kaien will be alright just the way he is. Isao & Nao would be supportive of him too I think. 😁

Alma

Papayama ready to whoop some kids in a split second is gold😂 We all know Yama had a complicated past. I imagine Kunimi and Kindaichi letting him follow them around because they felt sorry for him being all alone all the time but the weren’t friends. Tobio locking himself in the bathroom during lunch too eat all by himself🥲🥲 It feels truly amazing seeing how much Tobio has grown and although Kaien is a split image of Shoyo, Tobio really sees himself in his son’s head sometimes. And I have a feeling that he’s the only one who will get Kaien out of his head❤️

Ridley Ghost

Papayamas protective instincts and supportive smile 😭 ❤️💜

Clary Claire

woah this hits so close to home, but it's actually superwholesome... i love seeing kaien asking advice to tobio and also seeing adult dad tobio so composed and knowing what to say trying to soothe his son. the feeling of not fitting in a place... yeah, been there bud, but you'll be fine🫶

J.M. Lee

PapaYama... gambatte! 😊

Sunny

and also it’s nice to see more of kageyama and kaien bonding moments!! kaien reminds a lot of hinata in so many different ways so it’s nice to see that there’s some traits he got from his other papa as well (when tobio saw his younger self in his son oooooh this made my heart sting 🥹)

notthefinch

Papa Tobio means so much to me

Sunny

as someone who never knew how to open up to their parents, this update just hits different, it got me a little emotional ngl. 🥹 kaien’s struggles reminds me a lot of what i struggled with when i was a teen, not being able to fit in and which "personality" you’re supposed to have around the people you’re close to, because you’re scared that the honest and true part of yourself might be a too much of a burden to handle. so im glad kaien could talk to papayama and that tobio immediately knew what was wrong and will do his best to help him! (we love protective papayama in this house!!) i really loved this update it was really the highlight of my day thank you for this ally!!! 🫶🥹

Leia

Papayama immediately recognizing and acknowledging the seriousness of his feelings is pulling on my heart strings. 😭 I’m so glad that Kaien feels safe to open up, and for Tobio to realize the parallels in their situations to be able to provide a heartfelt conversation. Also loving the moment of fangs where Tobio is ready to go to war for his baby. I love this family! (And the supportive smile is sending me)

gokult

Yama’s supportive smile is sending me😭

FlameGreyWolf

Oh my god Papayama actually fits so well? I can see him emphasizing with Kaien on his past and how he only had friends when he went to Karasuno. Being apart and also from the social butterfly makes friends at the toilet Hinata would have hit him harder when they reunited. There's a certain disconnect when you come back to friends who've had the freedom to meet each other for years Vs how you missed out on so many things. But here's the thing about youth: they can make new memories together now that they're back. Things like how there was a Kaien sized hole that Kaien wouldn't be able to see because he was gone would now be filled again and I'm p sure that that's how the other two would view it too. Also Papayama with the grey hair streaks is 👀👀👀👀👀🙏

Mazikeen Kujo

Oh the supportive dad smile. Kageyama is doing his best.

c 🌱☀️

ohhhh papayama on his protective mode on when he thought kaien is left out 🥺 this chap hits so close to home and i love every bit of it!

frank m

ahhh this is perfect! and kageyama's supportive smile 😭😭😭😭😂😂😂😂

Justanotherart_account2110

Same... kaiens question hurt so much... same same... this goes so deep 😭💔

Chouchouwu

KAIEN DESERVES A BIG FAT HUG MY POOR BABY 😭 and also Tobio remembering his middle school days he knew how hard it was to fit in,, im sobbing just thinking how he knows his pup is hurting and then knowing he’d be there for kaien made me wish someone had done the same for little tobio SOBS I CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT PT!

Heir of Regulus

The Protective mode™️ the minute Yama thought they were leaving his baby out 😭❤️

tteokia

Oh my god my babies fr 😭🫶🏻 The line "which me are they here for" and the panel of Kags in middle school, I died death😭😭😭

Yeonie

*inhale* aaah I didn't know I needed papayama this much 😭 I feel Kaien so much and seeing him having people to rely on feels so healing ❤️‍🩹 Can't wait for what's next ! (Also protective papayama is just 💕💕)

yunie

OMG YES im so ready for this - the way Tobio was immediately ready to defend his pup ahhhhhh, seriously can wait to see more about their relationship and how can both Tobio and Shouyo help Kaien find the way 😭

Monica

THE WAY TOBIO IMMEDIATELY GOES INTO PROTECTIVE MODE WHEN HE THINKS KAIEN’S BEING LEFT OUT IMMA CRY 🥺🥺 and then the way he immediately understood with the setter comment >u< also really really love how he keeps up with Kaien’s thoughts even though they’re not super detailed? HE LOVES HIS KIDDO!!! HE KNOWS HIS KIDDO!!! 🥺💖 thank you for the update Ally!! T^T💖

dan

PAUSE i just realised kaien’s pout in the third page… he got that from tobio 😭

Princess

Protective Tobioooo 🥹🥹🥹 i love seeing vulnerable Papa Tobio and Kaien. Also the flashback to middle school Tobio 😭😭 I think after some adjusting and support Kaien is gonna be fine.

an

oh kaien ☹️💔

Heir of Regulus

Also..after all these years.. and Yama still can't smile supportingly without looking like a serial killer 🤣😅

Lisa Packard

😭😭😭 I'm SOBBING!! Kaein is such a sweet soul and he just needs that reassurance!! Tobio being such a good dad

StrxwbxrryRose

Awh bless him 😭💜💐✨

Emily☕

NOT THE SUPPORTIVE SMILE 😂

eli

man kaien's worries about being annoying and checking out while around his friends are so real. i literally see myself in him a bit on that part. ily art

nau

yesyesyesYES! this is so soothing and healing, a young teen seeking his parent for guidance and comfort💜

Jude

I'm so glad that it ended up being papayama!! I couldn't ignore the parallels to his past that were showing in kaien!! And you've shown it so beautifully, the flashback to young tobio 😭 beautiful, and I love their family dynamic sm

zee ji

THE WAY KAGEYAMA STILL THE ONE WHO TAKE KANAE TO BED 😭😭 THIS MAN REALLY DOWN SO BAD FOR HIS MINI VERSION

dan

PAPA TOBI 😭😭❤️❤️ him getting upset when he asks if they’re leaving kaien out and also remembering kitaichi days omg 💔 n his smile im dead i love him sm 😭