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Bending Eli, Chapter 18: Head Trauma
🕑 Added 2025-08-09 17:54:55 +0000 UTCChapter 18: Head Trauma
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I woke to the slow rise and fall of Mason’s chest beside me across the dorm room. His hair was a mess, his mouth slack in a way I’d never seen before. He looked peaceful, almost boyish. The light leaking in from the blinds caught the edges of his jaw, making him look softer than he had any right to after what he’d done to me last night.
I lay still, listening to the steady rhythm of his breathing, my mind replaying every detail. His hands locking around my hips. His voice, low and certain in my ear. The press of his body against mine.
This time there was no pretending he’d been too drunk to remember. No hazy morning-after excuse that could undo what had happened. Mason was sober. He’d known exactly what he was doing, and so had I. That truth sat heavy in my chest, both thrilling and unsettling.
Would it happen again? Would he want it? Expect it? The thought made my stomach twist. I wanted him to want me, but I didn’t know what that would do to the way we lived together. Would every casual joke or glance be different now?
I turned my head slightly, taking in the curve of his shoulder, the faint smudge of a bruise on his neck. My body smarted in familiar places, a slow throb that brought every moment back. I could stay. I could wait for him to wake and see if his eyes said the same things his body had last night. But the possibility of awkwardness, of him brushing it off or making a joke, felt too risky.
I slid out from under the covers, careful not to shift the mattress and make too much noise. Mason didn’t stir. I pulled on sweatpants and a hoodie, moving quietly, then slipped my shoes on by the door. I didn’t look back before easing it shut behind me.
The hallway air was cool and faintly smelled of last night’s takeout from someone else’s room. I stood there for a second with my hands in my pockets, trying to steady myself. My heart still felt tight, like I’d left something behind in that bed.
I needed to move, to clear my head. The gym was as good a place as any.
Outside, the morning air bit against my face, sharp and bracing. I walked quickly, my legs moving on instinct while my thoughts stayed behind with Mason.
By the time I reached the gym’s glass doors, my pulse had evened out. My reflection in the glass looked calm enough, but I knew better. I pushed the door open, telling myself I was here to work, not think.
The gym was quiet for a Monday morning. A few people were scattered on machines, the sound of weights clanking in the distance. I scanned the room, hoping to blend in and work through my thoughts in peace.
Of course, luck wasn’t on my side. Casper stepped out from the locker room just as I was heading toward the treadmills. His hair was damp at the edges, his T-shirt clinging to him in a way that made it obvious he’d already warmed up.
“Morning,” he said, his voice carrying across the room.
I gave a quick nod. “Hey.”
His eyes narrowed slightly, not in suspicion exactly, but like he was sizing me up. He crossed the floor toward me, every step easy and confident.
“You look… off,” he said once he was closer. “What’s going on?”
“Nothing,” I replied too quickly.
Casper tilted his head, unconvinced. “You’re a bad liar.”
I forced a shrug. “Just tired.”
“Uh-huh.” He glanced toward the far side of the gym, where the open workout room was empty. “You need a reset. Something heavy. Let’s do a full circuit—cardio, lifts, deep stretches. Get your head out of whatever’s eating at you.”
The offer caught me off guard. I’d come here to be alone, but the thought of pushing myself hard enough to quiet my thoughts had its appeal. “Alright,” I said finally.
“Good.” Casper’s mouth twitched into a small grin. “Come on.”
We started with cardio: ten minutes of sprints on the treadmill until my lungs burned and sweat slicked the back of my neck. Casper kept pace beside me, his stride smooth and unbroken. He didn’t talk much, just gave the occasional nod or gesture for me to keep my speed up.
From there, he led me to the free weights. We moved through a series of lifts that left my muscles screaming halfway through each set. Casper spotted me the whole time, his hands hovering near the bar when I benched, his voice steady with quiet instructions.
“You’re tensing your shoulders,” he said at one point, reaching down to tap them lightly. “Loosen up. Let the chest do the work.”
I adjusted, focusing on form, counting each rep in my head. The familiar feeling of strain began to drown out the restless loop of thoughts about Mason.
We finished with stretches on the mats. Casper knelt beside me, guiding my posture when I leaned into a hamstring stretch, pressing down gently on my back until I felt the pull run all the way down my legs.
“Better?” he asked.
“A little,” I admitted.
He studied me for a moment, his expression unreadable. “You’re still distracted,” he said finally.
I didn’t answer. The truth was sitting heavy in my chest, and saying anything risked too much.
Casper’s gaze lingered, like he was deciding whether to push further.
Casper didn’t waste time once we hit the next set. He set the treadmill speed for a sprint and started running beside me, matching my pace easily. We stayed quiet for the first few minutes, the pounding of our feet filling the space.
Then, without looking over, he said, “You’ve got that look.”
“What look?” I asked, eyes fixed on the readout in front of me.
“One that says something’s chewing at you.” His tone was casual, but the way he said it left no doubt he’d been paying attention since the second I walked in.
I kept my voice steady. “Just didn’t sleep much.”
“Bullshit,” he said, still running. “I’ve seen you after all-nighters. This is different.”
I didn’t answer right away, focusing instead on the burn building in my legs. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to tell him—Casper was… safe, in his own way—but there was no version of this conversation that didn’t end with more questions.
“It’s nothing I can’t deal with,” I said finally.
He glanced at me, his brow furrowing slightly before he eased the speed down. “Fine. If you’re gonna stonewall, we’ll just burn it out of you instead.”
We moved on to weights, and he was more hands-on than usual—adjusting my grip, spotting every set, correcting my form. The physical focus was helping, but every so often I caught him studying me between reps.
On the mats, he guided me into stretches, his hands steady on my shoulders and back. “You know,” he said, “talking actually works better than bottling it up.”
I shrugged, keeping my eyes on the floor. “Maybe. Just not today.”
Casper didn’t push further, but the silence between us felt heavier now, his attention lingering like he was biding his time.
We moved into the last round of stretches. Casper positioned himself in front of me, one knee down, the other bent, leaning in to press my shoulders forward. The stretch should have had my focus, but my eyes kept catching on the details. His forearms braced against my back. The way his shirt pulled across his chest. The line of muscle down his neck.
It wasn’t deliberate at first. I was just noticing. But once my brain caught up to what I was doing, it was already too late. Images from other times with him slipped in uninvited. How his hands had gripped my hips. How his voice had sounded when he told me to keep going. The other things we’d done together… My cock stirred, then swelled fast, trapped awkwardly in my shorts.
I shifted slightly, hoping the movement would ease it, but it only made me more aware of how hard I was.
Casper’s voice cut through everything. “Something’s going on in that head of yours.”
I glanced up, heart picking up speed. “What do you mean?”
“I can tell you’re not thinking about the gym anymore.” His eyes dropped to the front of my shorts, and I knew there was no hiding it. “Yeah. Exactly.”
A flush climbed my neck. My mind went to Mason, still asleep this morning, the memory of him rough and unfiltered fresh in my body. Did I really want to walk straight into something else the very next day? The smart answer was no. But Casper was not Mason. He had his own pull, his own way of making me feel like I didn’t have to think, only do.
Casper tilted his head slightly. “So, you want to keep pretending you’re here to stretch, or do you want a different kind of workout?”
My mouth was dry. I should have said no. I should have said I needed a break. Instead, I heard myself say, “Yeah.”
His smirk deepened like he had been expecting that. “Not here. My office.”
He stood and offered his hand. I took it, letting him pull me up. His grip was firm and casual, but it carried the same authority it always did.
We walked through the main gym without rushing. A couple of people were still scattered on the machines, but no one gave us a second glance. To anyone else, it probably looked like he was just leading an athlete to go over some training notes.
At the far end, he unlocked the frosted-glass door to his office and held it open for me. Inside, the same neat setup: desk, gym bag in the corner, couch against the wall.
Casper stepped in after me, shut the door, and locked it with a quiet click. “Alright,” he said, his voice steady. “Strip and get on all fours.”
I pulled my shirt over my head and let it drop to the floor. My shorts followed, sliding down my legs until I stepped out of them. The mat was cool under my knees as I settled into position, palms flat in front of me.
Casper’s footsteps came closer. The sound stopped just behind me, then shifted as he stepped around to my side. I looked up enough to see him kneel, one leg lowering first, then the other. His shorts hung loose at his hips for a second before he pushed them down, freeing his cock.
It was already hard, the smooth skin stretched over thick muscle, the head flushed darker. He didn’t touch himself much. Just angled forward until the tip hovered in front of my face.
“Open,” he said.
I did. He slid the head past my lips, the weight settling on my tongue. My jaw adjusted to the girth as he fed me more, the taste clean but faintly salty. His hand found the back of my head, palm wide and warm, guiding me forward until my lips met the base. I breathed in through my nose, the scent of him heavy and close.
He pulled back with the same control, letting the head rest on my tongue before pushing in again. The pace stayed even — no sudden thrusts, no teasing pauses. Just a steady, exact motion that made it easy to match his rhythm. My neck tilted with each stroke, my knees pressing into the mat for balance.
I let my tongue work the underside of him, tracing the firm ridge, feeling the slight pulse in the vein near the base. Every few strokes, he would hold me there, my lips flush against his skin, the weight filling my mouth completely. My throat worked to swallow around him, and his fingers tightened slightly in my hair before easing off.
The only sounds were my breathing and the quiet slick noise each time he slid free. My lips felt swollen, my jaw starting to ache, but I stayed with him, letting the repetition sink into my body.
He didn’t say much. Just a low “good” when I took him deeper without gagging, or when my tongue pressed in exactly the way he liked. The words landed almost like part of the rhythm — an extension of the movement rather than a break from it.
Minutes passed like that, his cock moving in and out of my mouth with the same precise tempo, my body adjusting to the shape and weight of him. My mind quieted in that way it always did with him, all focus narrowing to the simple act of being used.
When his hand finally left the back of my head, the head of his cock slipped from my lips, wet and slick, hanging heavy between us.
Casper shifted back onto his heels, his hand on my shoulder pushing gently until I straightened. He rose to his feet without speaking, turning around. I stayed on my knees, waiting.
“Excited?” he asked.
I moved in closer on the mat until I right up against his back. He was already working his shorts down the rest of the way, stepping out of them. The muscles in his legs stood out under the overhead lights, calves leading up to solid thighs. His ass was right there in front of me, smooth skin stretched over firm muscle.
He bent slightly at the waist, bracing his hands on his knees. “Get in there.”
I leaned forward and placed my hands on his hips. The heat of his skin warmed my palms. My face was close enough to catch his scent: clean sweat from the workout mixed with something deeper. I parted him with my thumbs and pressed my tongue to the base, starting low and dragging upward in one slow stroke.
He didn’t react much. Just held position, letting me work. I licked again, firmer this time, circling his rim before pressing the tip of my tongue inside. The muscle gave way gradually, and I pushed in deeper, twisting slightly to taste more of him.
His skin was warm under my hands. Every few seconds I pulled back to breathe, then went in again, alternating between long licks and short, focused strokes. I kept my grip steady, thumbs keeping him open for me, my tongue moving with deliberate precision.
Casper stayed still except for the subtle shift of his weight when I hit a spot he liked. I caught the quiet sound of his breathing, slow and even, almost matching my rhythm.
I pressed my face closer, flattening my tongue to cover more of him. The slickness grew with each pass, my mouth working in a steady cycle of licking, pressing, and circling. My jaw started to tense but I didn’t stop. The act had its own hypnotic pace, as much for me as for him.
“Good,” he said finally, his voice low.
I took it as permission to go deeper. My tongue pushed past the tight ring again, exploring, twisting slightly before pulling back to trace around it. I alternated between pushing in and dragging my tongue out over the sensitive skin, keeping it consistent.
He stayed bent over until I finally eased back, my lips wet, my breathing heavier. The taste lingered, faint but distinct.
Casper straightened, turning to face me. His expression hadn’t changed much, but his cock was hard again, heavy and ready.
Casper didn’t say anything right away. He just looked down at me, his hand resting on the top of my head for a second before he stepped closer. The tip of his cock brushed against my lips, still slick from when I’d been sucking him earlier, and then he moved past me.
“Stay where you are,” he said.
I kept my knees planted on the mat, hands still on the floor. He circled behind me, the sound of his bare feet against the mat muted. A firm hand landed on my lower back, pressing me forward until my spine dipped. My chest hung lower, my ass higher.
“Hold still.”
I felt his thumb slide between my cheeks, parting them enough for a rush of cooler air to hit. Then the wet sound of him spitting. The first glob landed right over my hole, warm and slick, and he smeared it in with slow, deliberate pressure.
Another spit followed, thicker, dripping down over the first. His thumb circled the rim, working the spit into me until the skin was slippery. The touch wasn’t gentle or teasing, just efficient. He was getting me ready to take him.
I let my head drop forward, eyes half closed, focusing on the feel of him preparing me. My breathing fell into a slow pattern, matching the steady movement of his hand.
When he pressed the head of his cock against me, the fit was tight. He didn’t push hard at first, just held there, letting the pressure build. My body adjusted to the stretch, inch by inch. The first slide in made me grip the mat.
Casper didn’t stop until he was buried all the way. His hips rested against me, his cock thick and solid inside. I stayed open for him, feeling the weight of him settle deep.
The first thrust was slow, controlled, pulling back until only the tip was inside before pushing forward again. He kept that pace for a while, each movement measured. My body relaxed into the rhythm, my knees firm against the mat, my palms flat for balance.
The sound in the room was just our breathing and the faint wet slide each time he moved. There was no rush, no building to anything sudden. Just steady, precise motion that pushed everything else out of my head.
Every so often, his hand would land on my hip, adjusting my angle slightly, or press against the small of my back to keep me from shifting. It wasn’t forceful, just a reminder of who was in control.
He started going a little deeper with each thrust, the head of his cock finding a spot inside me that made me lose my breath momentarily. I clenched around him involuntarily, and his pace slowed again, holding there before pulling back.
The friction was perfect — not rough enough to burn, but enough that every stroke dragged along the same sensitive path. I could feel my body adjusting, opening more with each pass.
Minutes passed like that, the repetition almost meditative. My thighs began to ache from holding position, but I didn’t move. His breathing stayed steady, only shifting when he pushed in a little harder or stayed buried for a beat longer. I moaned gently, trying not to draw attention to what was going on.
When he finally picked up the pace, it wasn’t by much. Just enough to send a heavier thump of his hips into mine, enough to make the sound of our bodies meeting fill the space. My fingers curled against the mat, steadying myself. Containing my groans of lust and pleasure became more difficult, but I held myself tight.
I caught the subtle shift in his breathing when he was getting close. His grip on my hips tightened, the thrusts more deliberate now, each one pressing deep.
“Hold still,” he said, his voice low.
I did. He pushed all the way in and stayed there, his cock throbbing as he came. The warmth spread inside me, pulsing in time with his release. He stayed in place until the last of it was done, then eased back slowly, his hand dragging lightly along my spine as he withdrew.
I stayed on my hands and knees, feeling the slick warmth between my legs. My breathing was heavy but steady, my body still loose from the rhythm he’d worked into me.
Casper stood, cleaned himself up, then dressed tucking himself back in place. He glanced down at me; the corner of his mouth lifted just a little.
“Go get cleaned up,” he said, his tone soft now.
“Thanks,” I murmured.
He reached out and gave my shoulder a quick squeeze before heading for the door. I stayed kneeling on the mat, the faint ache in my muscles a steady reminder of the way he’d just worked me over.
At the doorway he paused and looked back. “You’re doing good, Eli. Keep showing up like this, and you’ll be just fine.”
I pulled my clothes back on, the fabric clinging to my skin where sweat hadn’t fully dried. The room smelled faintly of sex and his cologne now. Casper was already gone, the quiet of the space making it feel like the whole thing had been sealed away the moment the door shut behind him.
His words stayed with me though. You’re doing good, Eli. Keep showing up like this, and you’ll be just fine. Simple, steady, the kind of thing he could have meant about gymnastics or… everything else. I didn’t know which part I wanted him to mean more.
Out in the main gym, a few people were scattered across the equipment, the faint clank of weights breaking the silence. I kept my head down and moved toward the exit. My legs still felt loose from the workout, from him, and every step sent a small reminder up through my hips.
Outside, the air hit cooler against my face. I started toward the dorm, hands in my pockets, trying to let the walk clear my head. The morning sun was out, the kind of light that should have made everything feel fresh and simple. It didn’t.
I’d gone to the gym to burn off the restlessness from waking up next to Mason, and instead I’d let myself get wrapped up in Casper. Not that I was complaining — it was exactly what I wanted in the moment — but it didn’t untangle anything. If anything, it made the knots tighter.
I could still see Mason’s face from this morning, the way he’d been asleep, completely relaxed, like nothing in the world was complicated. And I wanted that again. I wanted him again.
But then there was Casper. Controlled, calm, always knowing exactly what to do with me. It was different with him. Not better or worse, just… another thing I couldn’t seem to get out of my system.
By the time the dorm came into view, I hadn’t figured anything out. My body felt worked in the best way, but my head was a mess. Two different guys, two different pulls, and one common problem — I couldn’t stop thinking with my cock long enough to decide what I actually wanted.
I swiped my key card and stepped inside, already knowing the rest of the day was going to be useless for getting answers.
