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August Summer Nymph Sets! + ANNOUNCEMENT major changes coming
🕑 Added 2019-08-11 15:00:02 +0000 UTCSo this 3 week straight migraine coma has been brutal. I'll count the win that at least the new meds help manage the head pain decently but all the other symptoms I get are still debilitating. I get extreme light, noise, and scent sensitive (the taps on sound like niagara falls and makes the room turn upside down, the fridge light feels like a knife to my eyeball, etc). anything that's not dark just pulses at me it's like a not fun rave. I have ringing in my ears so loud it hurts, it just sounds like someone is blowing a whistle right it my ear. I get dizzy and super nausous, the room just keeps spinning and sometimes I just puke my guts out for hours. my muscles randomly just don't work, some days I can't even stand or hold a cup. my motor control gets all fucky. I can obviously barely eat during all this. My brain just stops working. Someone could be a foot from me and I know theyre talking to me but it just processes like... conversation din in the next room, when you can maybe make out an odd word but thats it. I get pain all behind my face and ears and neck from the pressure, if it's having a real fun time it'll make some spinal fluid leak out my nose bcs my brains like trying to freaking escape lolol. They bloody suck. They're so isolating, I would rather have my pain levels at a 7/10 bcs at least I could still watch tv or talk to a friend to distract myself!
So anyway as I've been trying to fight my way through these last few days it has forced me to do that take a hard look at your life shit. Which is trying, to say the least, when your brain is mostly mush from migraines and literally can't process a simple sentence... but I got there eventually and I realised my life is filled with... well you know when you keep that one pair of skinny jeans that you think you can fit into if you workout enough but it never happens? yeah. A lot of those but the skinny jeans are a slightly less crippled body...
My office is set up in a room at the other end of my apartment that I realistically get to maybe once a week... it has a chair I can only sit in for a couple minutes at a time before excruciating pain... and I keep waiting for maybe the next treatment or the next med to finally do something and get me back to the functionality I was even a year ago. to stay sane you have to maintain such a weird balance of acceptance of your illness, grieving for your past life, but still hoping it'll improve. But I think I leaned too hard on hope. Because I haven't gotten better, I've gotten worse. A lot worse. So reality check noted, punch to the gut also noted, I'll just dust myself off and make my life more accessible and manageable before I spiral myself into a full fledged mental breakdown (because clearly that's the only place I was headed as I ferociously waiting to stop getting sicker). I'm crippled as fuck. I can barely feed and medicate myself most days. But I know I can still have so much to give, and I'm gonna figure out how to do it in a healthy way while supporting myself. Because I'm a god-damn talented, creative, smart af boss ass bish, and I got dis!
SO THINGS ARE A-CHANGING. I'm not 100% on everything yet it's all... a lot. And difficult. Especially to do mostly on my own. But I'm so grateful I've got you guys and I know you've got my back and we're gonna come out of this creating such awesome fucking content that can reach/help more people and just grow our community of good fucking souls and it's gonna be amazeballs (my excitement merits the run on sentence so shhh) And you guys are my OG crew starting this new adventure with me....
ANYWHODOOLES on to august content!
This shoot is def one of my favs and I think it's been my most requested content!
I haven't even finished curating the sets yet, just peeked these gorg pics when I was sorting thumbnails and had to share..
Even tho I shot this a couple years ago I only ever released a few from this MASSIVE shoot... Do get ready for some lovely frolicking in the forest shots, yes including nipnooty NOODZ!
Posted more (and just the slightly pixelated censor version) earlier on my blog post here
And of course Uncensored here on my noodz blog (available to tier 5.5, 6.5, and 8 & up)
This whole set is so magically ethereal and I can't wait to share it with you all!
I'll post a detailed tier breakdown as soon as I can but basically:
- the main digi set goes out to tier 2
- the lewder set (that dress is real sheer ya'll) of the similar look is for tier 3 (which also gets the tier 2 set etc),
- then polaroid and 18+ snapchat start at tier 4
- and noodz are at tier 5.5, 6.5, and 8 & up!
Shot by Mystery Man Photography
Oh! and lastly... I'm finally on the only fans train bcs I realised it was a new way for me to distribute more intimate noodz/content and chat with my peeps, SO LIKE HELLS YEA I'M IN!! https://onlyfans.com/claracosmia I know it's super confusing with the bajillion ways i have to consume my content or support me but since I'm in the process of a that much needed overhaul to try and balance my work better with my health (mental & physical) there may be some growing pains but it'll be worth it!
But briefly, my plan for onlyfans is like if my private snapchat & self-shot sets had a lil baby haha. I'm still learning the ropes, but it'll be more of a cute/naughty selfie feed with the option to tip more to get naughtier content sent directly to you (unlike snapchat you'd be able to save it!). So just to reinterate my Onlyfans is not a duplicate of my Patreon, I'm going to still keep my professional shoots & BTS type blog/vlogs content here all the same, just addings an option for more intimate exchanges and maybe even custom clips who knowwwws. I just realised "intimate exchange" sounds like fully dirty, I don't plan to get much naughtier than the noodz content I release to my top tiers, like I'm not gonna cyber with anyone, but who knows I mean as I got more comfortable with the community here I've loved being able to experiment and show more hehe....
PS. The slightly more functional health window I was waiting for to be able to edit July's content clearly didn't come (fuck you 3 week long migraine someone pls shoot me in the face) so I'm outsourcing and should have them back and sent out to your eager inboxes soon đ€
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