Marrion
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Therapy
🕑 Added 2024-06-01 15:26:33 +0000 UTCRecently, thanks to a wonderful person, I remembered an interesting topic.
This theme is digital drawing.
I did this for quite a long time, about a year. It all started with the fact that I began to understand more and more about myself, my emotions and their understanding. It turned out that I understand very poorly the emotions not only of mine, but also of other people. There is nothing out of the ordinary, I feel them in myself just like all people, but it’s hard for me to characterize them.
All of the above led to my partner and I spending a lot of time discussing this topic. And we came to the conclusion that practicing digital drawing every day for half an hour to an hour in the morning could help me. It was planned that it would be a kind of therapy for me, and that’s how it turned out in the end. I started looking for a program in which I would like to paint, tried several and settled on Krita, since it has a nice and user-friendly interface and many different brushes. And I started drawing every day, at first it was difficult, it took me a long time to get used to it, but I tried to pull myself together and maintain this practice.
When I first started doing this, I didn’t think about what technique I would use to draw. I tried different techniques, drew, trying different brushes, using my old tablet. Gradually it became a breath of fresh air for me, adding variety to my daily routine. I am a rather depressed and anxious person, and drawing helped me to sublimate my emotions, giving them to a digital canvas, to understand and experience a little. As a result, the drawings turned out gloomy and from this my style developed, which I like. Even though these are not fun color pictures, it helps me, and overall it looks good in my opinion.
In the last 2-3 months I haven't been drawing specifically for the purpose of drawing, only sometimes I make drawings for posts on Patreon. And now, after about a year, I began to better understand what was happening to me and how I felt. The urgent need to draw has faded into the background, giving way to 3D modeling, which is also therapy for me to some extent, but of a different kind.
This is how my experience with drawing influenced me in an interesting way. Yes, this is not a new practice, there are many options for art therapy, but for me it was something new, because all my adult life I have been involved in art in its various manifestations and did not consider it as therapy, and this is a funny paradox that for me stabotal, which in principle is not surprising.
What methods of therapy and living through emotions do you have, my dear Patrons?
Comments
Marrion 3d
I think you will succeed because you understand it and put in a lot of effort ❤
Wim D.
Your analysis is 100% correct; it's very hard for me to enjoy the process and ignore/not focus on the end result. I run into this in almost everything I do, and it makes things quite hard. I've been actively working on this for a while, but it's a challenge for me.
Marrion 3d
I’m glad that you are able to immerse yourself in guitar lessons and get a boost of motivation, it’s great, music is a very expressive and emotional thing :) In your case about drawing, it sounds like your goal was to master a skill and you were focused on that outcome because you viewed it as a problem to be solved. For myself, I realized that in drawing and 3D modeling there is no final point of development when I wanted to say “now I have learned, I have received this achievement,” and if it seems to me that I have finally mastered this skill, I am mistaken. You can improve endlessly in art, constantly discovering new facets of it, learning new tools and techniques. What helped me was that I began to learn to enjoy the process, not the result, no matter whether it was drawing or 3D modeling. When I started drawing with a tablet, I had neither the skill of working with a tablet nor a specific idea of what I wanted to draw. I just drew blots and spots, which in the process turned into something understandable :) If you one day decide to return to drawing, just try to draw, no matter what, the main thing is to try to enjoy the process ^_^
Wim D.
I tried getting into digital drawing (and drawing in general) once. Still have my tablet laying around as well as the software (I believe Krita was one of them). But sadly, like with many things I think I want to try, very quickly I lost interest because the challenge felt too big. Even though in my mind, I still sometimes yearn for learning that skill. I guess I can look at my guitar playing as some form of therapy/try to express emotion. After my burn-out I picked it back up again (had followed lessons for a while a good few years before, but I never became any good at it due to lack of practise). Even now after 2 years of weekly lessons I still struggle, because I don't feel that I master it enough to feel joy rather than frustration most of the time. But I keep pushing myself to at the very least go to my weekly course, even if I didn't manage to practise/improve, just as a form of interaction with my teacher, and as an investment in my own well being. Very often I come out of the lesson with more motivation and joy (in general, not just for guitar playing) than I had when I went in.
