SaraManganeseASMR
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🕑 Added 2022-09-28 18:47:20 +0000 UTCHey Guys, today I arrived back to London, I had been in mainland Europe for a while. my family are begging me to stay, I will try. it will be good for me in a lot of ways to stay, as im also working on my self-discipline. and some other things.
Secondly, I hope you received your letters, or at least they should be on the way, im sorry for the messy envelopes, my sister had to scribble and re-write addresses to fit some stamps :D they're not much, but I thought it was nice.
I had to cancel a lot of cameos, and have been producing much less lately. things are complicated for me behind closes doors, as I'm sure we all have skeletons. although I still feel shame, truthfully I think I can still do these things on time, but I lack the discipline ( or better yet, I have lost all the discipline I used to have )and I can be very self destructive. I do things in the most difficult way! haha. Being in one place for now will hopefully help me with this and I would love to start customs and regular videos/replying again.
I have also been demotivated. I am unbelievably grateful for all I have with regards to YouTube, and I really hope you feel when I say this with a genuine heart. although the internet can be ruthless, and I try to protect myself. best I can. I am sure that there are people that leak my patreon content, as I have already seen on Reddit, and they're ridiculing me simultaneously, even though they are posted by a patron! it makes me have trust issues, perhaps not everyone here is my friend or means well. I'm sure that's not true for 99.9999%, but it frightens me. someone leaked my smoking video, and I lost tons of subscribers and received nasty emails. however, this to me is a spring clean, because I don't necessarily even want people like that subscribed to me, who will hate me for my own personal choice as an adult to smoke. I'm not ashamed. and I don't want to surround myself with people as such. I find myself interacting less, in an attempt to shield myself. but this makes me sad too. I hope I can find a balance.
I'm trying to figure out how to rearrange my tiers, but I don't know how to, without it getting confusing. I will be cancelling 1$ and 3$ tiers soon. maybe now.
I am excited to start my new channel soon. and the creative freedom that will come with it. it will be about anything and everything :) I'm excited.
I will film the next names video soon. and more patreon content. thanks for always being patient with me :) you are all very gentle and it makes things really pleasant :)
Love, miss m
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Thanks Malia :)
Truly sorry that you experienced all that BS. I think that taking out the less expensive tiers is a good idea. Anyone willing to pay the extra $$ for your content are unlikely to be the same people that would go and post your content along with their negative, and frankly, unwarranted comments. There are plenty of us who love your content and love what you do, it really is an art. It really is insulting for them to be so negative as if it isn't your body and your choice and also THEIR choice to pay for content that they apparently don't like. I mean if they really had a problem with it, they could have struck it up with you. But its a waste of time to rack our brains about the reasoning and thought processes of someone that is not us. Anyways, I hope that this did not discourage you from continuing to make 420 content. I do not smoke and never have but find that content incredibly relaxing and def think if that is your choice and it makes you happy you should continue doin it xx <3 all the love
ur so sweet :) thankyou so so much. love to u <3
