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🕑 Added 2023-02-20 09:54:23 +0000 UTCPolina
A couple of days ago I had a very strange condition. I woke up and felt that I "don't care". I felt nothing inside, no emotions, no sensations and desires, there were almost no thoughts. I was completely apathetic.
It would seem nothing strange, I just woke up without a mood. But usually such a mood of mine is reinforced by sadness or anger or fear - there is some basic emotion that controls me. And here there is nothing at all. At first I was a little embarrassed because I did not understand what had happened, my relatives were worried about my condition. But in half a day I started to simply accept this state and it became quite interesting to me. Not feeling anything and not wanting anything - if this is called real apathy, then I liked it. It seems that it was a day of continuous meditation.
Next morning I woke up more motivated with desires and ideas. It was fun, but I understand that if that state stayed with me for a long time, then it would be possible to fall into real depression.
Has this ever happened to you? So that simply inside "nothing" is not felt and desired?
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Roam
I think you’re quite original having such depressive mood so rarely. Today depression is almost a generational issue. I’ve never been close to a depression, being naturally positive, open and driven. With one exception; when my parents died within 6 months in 2020 I had a sudden full blown depression for three months. I felt literally nothing, like I was trapped under ice - I saw people and the world, but was separated from it. Then I felt like you just described it, Jules. After that I’ve been a different person - still open and positive, but more reflective and thoughtful.
EMS
Great lighting Julia
