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Vent (Life update ig)
🕑 Added 2023-09-21 08:56:20 +0000 UTCYesterday night I was depresso espresso (complicated reasons), i bawled my eyes out for like 3 hours and got high in the sky to chill tf out, and today i barely can see anything, my face's so puffy lmao
i feel like a phoque lol, but i feel a tiny bit better today atleast
the situations where you blame yourself for everything are the worst - and when you think of it, you're actually blaming the child version of you too.
And somehow, even though you feel like shit, you wouldn't want to blame a child that's just curious of the world and had never any intentions of harm. And then you kind of feel better - even though you know something's totally your fault, you don't blame yourself too much after thinking this way.
It's calming. I guess it's a way of protecting yourself while hating yourself meantime.
i guess you can call it a life update, just wanted to vent ig
im such a philosoph lol
anyways im starting another comm today, ahri nsfw should be out tomorrow and ill tryna manage finish the comm within those 3 days
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Lirenya
Or to be the one to save the child version of you. At the end of the day, we became the person who our child self needed the most back then.
Noctis Lucis
Damn this resonates deep with Me. I often wish I could go back in the past as my child self but with my adult mentality of now and โfixโ certain situations I absolutely bombed. Hope you feel better philosopher Lirenya ๐๐ป
