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oculus
new york city — shot on 35mm film
perfect
I hate when people tell me I’m perfectIt makes me cringeI hate when things are said that are so strikingly untrue and meant to be a complimentFalsities aren’t a compliment It bothered me the first time you said itI didn’t understand you like I do nowI pushed back and you seemed amusedYou love to watch my dissentThe times after that I started to hear it differentlyLooking back it’s actually one of the things you said to me that I think abo...
disco nap
shot on 35mm film
pain can be relieving
Starving for something more Than how it’s been before Come and lay down with me I’m sorry it’s on the floorI’m told I’m not hard to love But I’m hard to like sometimes I wonder what they’d really think If aware of the depth of my crimes Beauty can be deceiving A life worth living is one worth grievingGive me more than I’m open to receiving I promise I won’t stop you from leaving
city blues
new york city — shot on 35mm film
shades
I don’t really like the me I am when I’m with youI think you feel the sameIt’s weird to love someone so much but not like the intersection where we collideIt feels tragicLike a movie with no clear endingA beautiful work of art in the attic collecting dustI’ve passed the age where things are black and whiteShades of grey surround my every cellWay more than 50It’s just something I have to live with nowIt really wasn’t very long ago that...
textures on textures
shot on 35mm film
milkshake 20 (alex wann remix)
Nothing new or lyrically groundbreaking lmao but this is the best mix I’ve heard of this song and it goes hard——————Milkshake 20 (Alex Wann Remix) — Kelis, Alex WannSingle, 2023https://open.spotify.com/track/49wEdWGkL2CcOrXEKklXtJ?si=Qy1jGg-_SKG3T4nXJ2iWzQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A6x2zv2rhiwUYECd681EisAMy milkshake brings all the boys to the yardAnd they're like, it's better than yoursDamn right, it's better than your...
chapstick
The world is ending and I can’t find my chapstick A lifetime of swimming upstream has made me too tired to look for it My lips will just stay chapped Nothing surprises me anymore I hate that about myself I can’t stay mad because I understand It makes me seem weak But a lifetime of thrashing upstream has made me strong In all the wrong ways Let’s play a game You give me your worst I’ll find the beauty Daddy’s little bleeding heart prince...
silence & secrets
My favorite band of the past year, all of their stuff is incredible.___________Silence & Secrets – WhoMadeWho UUUU, 2022https://open.spotify.com/track/6wQMLsbcaGAxr3A6FdvQZo?si=3udITXdrQYa-1oA4BiO7Rg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A7hPLIz9XcsRngTp4xZWbDUPleasedon't close your eyes Complicated timesLet these waters riseI am the river, let it flowOceans between usFires beneath usAll of the weakness flowsIt flowsSilence and secretsFeigning completen...
a view i like
shot on 35mm film
answers
Why does reality not really phase meIt absolutely does but it doesn’tIn a way I feel unbreakableHeld by a false sense of protection Like a glass figurine in a glass caseMaybe this is what happens when someone is shattered over and overBreaking becomes breathingAnswers become askingEverything becomes subjectiveI don’t know anythingBut I know youAnd I don’t know howAnd I don’t know why
a bit of the old ultraviolence
I’ll never sleep againAnd if I must I’ll sleep with my eyes openHire the prop designers from A Clockwork OrangeHave them create one just for meMy lids have lost their privilegesTaken rest away from the rest of meStolen the blackness and quietReplaced it with images I shouldn’t be interested inActive imagination can turn on youActively imagining can turn you onAll limitation forcefully withdrawnMemories morph into what would beCould beShould...
sun king
Sun King – LAURELDOGVIOLET, 2018https://open.spotify.com/track/2EvOCt1Crgp7tQeuuRxzIg?si=ApjLZJABRKy_c46B7RKP8g&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A6CIanwE77USA9tyvHJ5TZFHehas bedroom eyes, they're just like mineAnd when we walk the streetsI see people wonderingIf we're true or troubled thenI say, "He's my sun king"Through thick, or thick, or thinAnd on a Sunday we like to watch the TVI'm the hole in his heartbeatAnd in this summe...
matrix party - 06
shot on 35mm film
silence
I don’t know how to have silence on the phone with anyoneExcept youIt’s weird because it doesn’t feel weirdI usually don’t like empty spaces in conversationI feel the need to fill themMake the other person feel comfortableTalking even if I’m not saying anythingBut the silence between us is heavyIt holds weightIt doesn’t feel empty because it’s notI want to say I want youI need youI love youBut I don’tBecause you already know
genesis
she solstice on my soul till we kiss torturous bliss I will enforce this forever sounds clever fade into abyss beyond time and space I’m talking genesis
behind the scenes
thanks for rocking with me while I was away and not as active :)
ungodly fruit
I have no emotional connection to this song but I’ve been vibing to it when it comes on the playlist. Enjoy :)——————Ungodly Fruit — Wax TailorTales of the Forgotten Melodies, 2005https://open.spotify.com/track/0Ny30hfcHPaVkCBH4lsKhf?si=KEjLL7CFSAKmy0YHc90lUQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A15fB97DqVW1K7Jy1vpkYRZWe'rejust like other peopleWe love to singWe love to danceWe admire beautiful womenWe're humanAnd sometimes very humanP...
la times
shot on 35mm film
sight
“Are we in love?” I ask a question I know the answer to I want you to say itBecause there was a timeWhen it came pouring out your mouthYou think saying it out loud will somehow make it more real than it already isYou are better at hiding things from yourself than I amBut your tactics don’t work on meYou put your hands over my eyes But I can still make out the shapes through the small gaps in your fingersI see through youInto youAnd nothing ...
sunday morning energy
shot on 35mm film
reverence
I spent all my money on filmMoney I don’t haveMaybe because I want someone to see the world through my eyesAnyoneMaybe because documenting life in the most beautiful way I know how Is the only way I feel I’m showing my respectMy reverenceIt still doesn’t feel like enoughI don’t think it ever will
glow away
the met, new york city — shot on 35mm film
the greatest
My favorite track from the new Billie album. The entire album is amazing but this one hits/hurts, could have come straight from my mouth. Beautiful and powerful song.——————The Greatest — Billie EilishHit Me Hard and Soft, 2024https://open.spotify.com/track/6TGd66r0nlPaYm3KIoI7ET?si=W-kVj6yjTDCbs1SStA4k0Q&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A7aJuG4TFXa2hmE4z1yxc3nI'mtrying my bestTo keep you satisfiedLet you get your restWhile I stayed up a...
